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Song: Journey by Corrinne May
I went through seven mountains this week.
My mind was once filled with emptiness and angst; and I fucked it. I stumbled into a dead hole of mirage and delusion; an unfamiliar place of no misery and sorrow. There's no reality in there. And before I gained back conscious, everything's too late. I knew I got to take the walk, the walk back to misery and pain. The walk back to reality. It was real hard. No one want reality. No one want the truth.
But still, I took the walk.
And today, I looked through the reflection from the mirror. I saw a pale man with very dark circles and had a great laugh. What a joke I created on myself.
Now, that's reality.
My mind was once filled with emptiness and angst; and I fucked it. I stumbled into a dead hole of mirage and delusion; an unfamiliar place of no misery and sorrow. There's no reality in there. And before I gained back conscious, everything's too late. I knew I got to take the walk, the walk back to misery and pain. The walk back to reality. It was real hard. No one want reality. No one want the truth.
But still, I took the walk.
And today, I looked through the reflection from the mirror. I saw a pale man with very dark circles and had a great laugh. What a joke I created on myself.
Now, that's reality.
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I tried that colourgenics test. Is kindda accurate, at least in my context. =)
You are constantly hoping that your good fellowship and attitude and your 'love for your fellow man (or women)' will give you peace of mind. You need people - people around you to care for you and to show you that they care. It is this hope that keeps you going, the hope that makes you the type of person that indeed you are. Your own need for approval seemingly makes you always ready to help others and in exchange you seek love, warmth and understanding. You will always listen to others and you are open to new ideas which hopefully will prove fruitful and interesting.
You are a leader in every sense of the word. You know where you are going and you know what you need to do in order to get there. You exercise an inherent initiative in overcoming obstacles and difficulties. You either hold, or wish to achieve, a position of authority by means of which full control can be exerted over events.
You are feeling under considerable pressure and you are being forced to make concessions. You are not particularly happy with this state of affairs but you feel that you have no alternative. If you were to force issues you would be left out or completely ignored by one and all.
Whatever has caused the situation, you just don't seem to be able to sustain or maintain relationships as you would wish to. What you really seek is to be able to develop a relationship with someone with whom you can truly share: Love, Serenity, Peace and Quiet. But you are a very demanding person and it is your nature that leads to disquiet and discord: you are like the tide, flotsam and jetsam... One minute you experience 'highs' and a few moments later 'lows'. This obviously will introduce discord into any relationship and with this demanding attitude - the ideal state you desire is unable to develop. Despite the urge to gratify your natural desires, you impose a considerable self-restraint on your instincts in the belief that this demonstrates your superiority and raises you above the common herd. You are extremely critical of everything that is presently going on around you and you find it difficult to listen to or to take advice from anyone. You enjoy the original, the ingenious and the subtle.
You feel that you need to move on. You feel that you are not appreciated or valued for what you are and that the time is 'now'. Failure to do so will not afford you the conditions to prove your worth.
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