Tired

The exam is not officially over yet.
Still have a paper this coming tues.
But since it is 40MCQs and open-book;
No point studying either.
Lesson learnt from last few CAs of grade B+, C+, C+.
And I did study real hard for them then.
And now,I gotta score a B+ to neutralize all to B wor.
Wonder how?!?!

I have given my best this period of time.
Studying for Organic Chemistry for five consecutive days straight.
And still, it leads to a *gotta pray to pass* situation like now.
To add on, BioChemistry today kills,
And decided to form an "alpha/beta dimer" with Organic Chem.
-_-"

After so many years,
After achieving 5 A's in O-level,
A polytechnic result script with mostly A's and few B's,
This time round is the first time in my life,
I flunked almost EVERYTHING.
Perhaps not even pass some of the modules,
Not to even mention B's nor A's.

I used to believe confidence;
Determination and working hard would lead to success.
For now I stated otherwise.
Brain plays an important role too.

My confident level drops to the bottomless pit,
Determination and hard work gone to waste.
It simply sucks.
Shrugs.

Tired. Shagged. Old.
I'm a gonecase.

1 down, 4 to go

Chemo leads to emo.
Yesterday CM1121 was horribly done.
It wasn't really a difficult paper;
But I'm just lousy in it ah.
I simply sucks at equations and chemical structures.
Hopefully, it will be moderated;
And let me score at least a D (*pray*),
So I won't need to repeat the module.

On a lighter note, IT1001 was fine.
We scored one of e highest among the class for the project!
Haha, e comment was e presentation was freaking too long.
Though I thought the others were kindda long too.
Hopefully tues exam on it would give me a tiny weeny A. =)
At least to neutralize the Chem's grade.

Till then,
I continue to pray for my chem.

Love you guys!

Whatever

My world is falling apart. How fun.
An insane call received yesterday,
And my brain went mad.
Fuck.

Not his fault, not my fault.
We are good brothers by the way.
Just that the conversation made both of us mad.
Almost reached insanity; and we sank into depression mode.

What so big deal about making into NUS,
Or NTU for his case,
When one study for the sake of parents.
Don't get me wrong.
School was okay, uni friends were fun.
I'm surviving.
But I'm sure this is not what I want.
And now, I blame myself for being so indecisive back then.

Went for a run. A long run that lasts 1.5 hours.
Hoping to get through it with some thoughts.
No conclusion drawn.
Hell with it.

Been slacking these days.
Will start to mug for exam today.
For whatever reasons.
Maybe just not to lose my folks' faces.

Life's such a bitch.

Final Stage

Yeah!
Finally.
Everything about this semester,
Will be ending in four weeks time. =)
Hooray!!!

I see fun not afar.
Clubbing sessions with Jun or Darren and guys;
Fishing and prawning trips with bro and bro in law.
Suppers with e burgies;
Chilling out sessions with Butt and guys.

Besides all that,
I need a spa session badly,
And answer to my cravings for Japanese food.
Plenty retail therapies required (is Xmas sales),
And some great tanning sessions at Sentosa.

And of coz, the highlight of the year on Dec 25th,

TAIWAN 10 DAYS TRIP!

Yeah.

=)

Oh yeah,
Did I mention that I've not catch a flick since 1.5 months ago?
LoL

I promised myself to have a month of fun before school starts.

Lives

A dream never come true

He was a young man,
With plans and strength,
Of expectations and thoughts.

That was a dream,
About passion and lust,
Of hopes and desires.

He thought that it was the best choice.
But they thought otherwise.
Thus the young man lives within boundaries,
And locked himself in a cage of struggles.

He seems to deem fit.
Or so, he endeavored to the fame of success.
Exhausted, but still motivated.
He moved on.

Till now,
Hopes were scattered,
He didn’t reap what he sowed.
And left him with a dream unfulfilled.

An old man he becomes.

............................................................

Life could have been so vulnerable. During Monday genetics lecture, a dear friend called to inform me the death of his father a day ago. I was stunned, with a scary thought of seeing an ever-cheeky chap broke down in tears. Calls were made, messages were sent. An indication that friends do care, and a conclusion to pay him a visit on wed. To add on, he is planning to get marry in two months time. And on Tuesday, I heard about the death of a university pal’s father, after losing the battle to cancer.

He was strong, and she was even stronger. I blessed her to be safe and happy for the rest of her life. And hopefully his life would be fulfilled again by opening a new chapter of life – the marriage. To every thing there is a season, and a time to every purpose under the heaven; a time to be born, and a time to die; a time to plant, and a time to pluck up that which is planted.

Death comes to all.
But great achievements build a monument;
Which shall endure until the sun grows cold.

Youtube got these???

Can't really sleep, coz slept too much in the afternoon.
I haven't touch on books yet. Wonder how?!
Caught a pretty old film (1987) on Channel 8.
A Chinese Ghost Story by Leslie Cheung and Wang Zuxian.
Got the urge to rent "Liang Zu" by Wu QiLong and Charlie Yeung.
A movie that caught my heart years ago,

And I had watched it umpteen times.
Very uncle right (new nick by uni's pals)!

LoL.

Anyway,

Managed to find these on youtube,

Which I thought was pretty "off".

Ah Beng'd Rap

Sound the same as the "real triad" cheers, but lyrics changed.

LoL, reminded me of Secondary School Dazes

Mr. Brown
Nice rap/song by Hossan Leong.

20 days to exams - Frequent spotted msn nicks. *Shrugs*