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Ha ha, the third day of Dec, and I am still waiting...
I called up the human resource, and she told me to wait.
She reassured that I am selected, but the "agency" just need some time for the paper work.
Damn this thing, especially for an impatient person like me.

I am really too bored these days that made me do rather random things. Here's 25 random things I am doing these days.

1. I am re-reading PS: I love you coz I was too bored (and don't judge me! ahahs).

2. I am preparing a scapbook-cum-photo-album for my polytechnic photos that has been developed four years back. University/Army photos are yet to be developed. I guess I will do it within this week, or maybe next week. haha.

3. I am running 2.4km per day.

4. I has started to take multi vitamins on a daily basics. For fuck? I also dunno.

5. I am babysitting Little Bryce everyday. And I think he makes a good doctor next time. He loves my biology notes and he likes to point to me different parts of the human body diagram. And I go "kidneyyyy", "intestineeee", "stomachhhhh", "penissss".

6. I has this urge to countdown in Taipei since Meihua, Poh Soo and Hong Kiat are all in Taiwan this festive season. I hint my mum, and she gave me a nag. boo.

7. On tuesday, I visited the temple with a friend. And he saw a heart, two zeros, and a smile on the sarced stone. So I bet on 2003 for Wed 4D, hoping to go taiwan if I strike big.

8. Hoho. 2003 was not on the 4D list.

9. Kris Soh Chin Kok finally texted me after disappearing for 800 years. He usually re-appears after school term ends. And yup, he finished his exams.

10. I can't think of 25 cause I got nothing much to do these days. Haha. Shall end with #10 then.

11. Oh yeah, this is a lame post.

Waiting

Dear Diary of a hardcore chao loafer aka bummer,

It's the middle of yet-another-week. After sleeping for hours and hours and dozen of hours, ah yes, yours truly is finally awake cause, ahem I need to pee. I answered my call of nature, and decided to have a shower caused my mum was shouting real hard at me outside the bathroom just now. I reckon she's real mad cause her son-turned-bastard, who has graduated from university and ORDed since a month ago, has been doing nothing constructive this past month then just sleep and going out at the wee hours.

For my so-called-lunch-turned-dinner today, I swallowed a bowl of fish porridge that had been left in the cooker for hours. And right now, besides waiting for Weihao's call (he said he would call tonight), I have absolutely nothing to do. All I can think of is to switch off the computer, and sleep.

I got to admit that no one loves waiting. Except waiting for that "piece of contract", I’m living a meaningless life. I’m tired today and by tomorrow I should be better. I think I might be tired tomorrow and by the day after next I should be better. Things will only get better when I am not jobless, ermmm lawfully.

Waiting and waiting, its got me breaking.

This evening’s a silence.

Or maybe I should be setting myself for the perfect letdown.

So that I won't feel so dissappointed when the news turn sour.

Some says I'm too paranoid.

Some says my pessimism is working actively on me.

Laughs, I still love these friends cause I have been giving them alot of stupid scenerios.

I shall wait,

Impatiently.

I shall wait,

For that white winter I have been longing.

Signed off.

Screwed.

Aha, I needed three tries before I could log on to blogger. I scare I will forget the password to blogger eventually. No?

I just watched a sad old retro movie.

The story was written by Qiong Yao.

About a guy, who after a heart broken relationship, hide himself in his own world.

On the outside, he appeared strong and arrogant.

But deep inside, he's seriously injured.

Everyday, he buried himself with his work,

He drank and smoke, he has no longing for his love life.

He protected himself with an arrogant outter shell.

He appeared confident, and always sure about what he wants.

But he's just someone who needs love as well.

He's just an injured tiger with an aching heart.

Till the day, the female protangonist appeared.

The female lead was a sunny young girl, who smile like an angel.

She is beautiful, lovely and smart (starred by lin chin hsia leh!).

But he, he dared to love no more and chose to give her cold shoulders.

Eventually, after countless obstacles, the female lead melts this cold mountain.

They got in love. A love so sweet and everlasting.

The story, ended with a happy ending...

And I cried badly after the show ends. Real bad. Until my mum walked up to me and called me "siao". Deep inside, I was asking myself... Does this kind of love still exist in real life? Am I setting up a protective shell for myself as well? Do I failed as a friend, a boyfriend (if she counted me as one in the first place) when things ended up back then? Two years. It been about two years since I last saw her. And I missed her real bad. Will I ever find a female lead in my life, just like the movie... Will I ever...

I'm almost a total failure. Closed friends called up and said that I'm missing them out in my life. Not stepping into sales and research, I got a real hard time finding job. My parents are forcing me to take up whatever jobs out there in the market.

Today, I know my life is screwed.

My love life is screwed.

My life is totally screwed.

Marriage

Yeah, its that time of the month (or rather year) that I got this urge to blog.
I wonder who still surf this old blog of mine; who will happen to see this new entry.
Zzz, doesn't really matter, cause I JUST GOT THE URGE TO BLOG LAH!!! *lame*

Everything has been good this far.
This friday, I will do my medical FFI.
Next Wednesday, I will be a free man.

Define: Freeman
(1) A man or woman who is no longer a student, but yet does not own a job. (2) Neither emotionally bond with anyone, nor physically bond with any thing (some say dosmetic partnership)... (3) His finanical status is getting to a state where the ATM just won't drop out anymore cash no matter how little he pressed. *roar, its that bad!*

Got through a few interviews, some good news for some job scopes I don't like; no good news (yet) for some jobs I like. Damn!
Embryologist at Thomson Medical?
Cell Therapist at Lonza?
I'm waiting, waiting and waiting...

Has getting hitched or married become more and more common for someone my age?
I have attended way too many weddings these few months...
A reason for the depletion in my bank account too.. Boo hoo.
But nonetheless, hope that they will be blissful and happy till the day they grow old.

But I just wonder, at the age of 25, isn't it a little too young to settle down?
When one might just get a job, or haven't get a job;
Yet someone on the other hand is getting married and will have kids soon.
When one is working extra hard for his career;
Yet someone on the other hand is pacifying his son with a toy or snack or whatsoever.

Some say, that should be a balance between career and marriage + kids.
I say career comes before marriage and kids.
Getting married at the age of 25 is definitely too overwhelming.
To me, marriage is just a legal piece of paper to buy house, to bore a child.
I believe true love comes when two human beings are emotionally bonded,
And with love, getting married or not is no longer an issue anymore.

But sad to say, there are too many couples I have seen that are marrying cause of "hidden reasons". Do they love one another that's why they are marrying, or because they need to "get married" so they got marry? Could one live with someone for the next 50 years of his life due to a mistake he made at 25? And then, the "mistake" becomes the reason that they stay together, for at least the next 7 years or so, before they call it quit?

Marriage to me, its something sarced, something majestic, something that meant to last forever... No matter what it is... I still blessed the people around me, who are married or are getting married, to stay happy, blissful, and perhaps a little ignorance as you walk through your journey of marriage...

=)

There are at least two weddings coming up next year that will make me smile wholeheartedly. Brother's and butt's... So, I 有的忙了。。。

Wonder who's coming up next... Weihao & Jean? Alvin and Christine? Haha. Who knows.. =)

Graduation Class 2009

Current Mood: Peaceful
Current Song: Friends Forever by Vit C followed by 細水長流

Warning: This is going to be a damn long entry.

Will we think about tomorrow like we think about now?

Can we survive it out there?

Can we make it somehow?

I guess I thought that this would never end

And suddenly it's like we're women and men

Will the past be a shadow that will follow us 'round?

Will these memories fade when I leave this town

I keep, I keep thinking that it's not goodbye

Keep on thinking it's a time to fly

As we go on

We remember

All the times we had together

And as our lives change

Come Whatever

We will still be Friends Forever

"To accomplish great things, we must not only dream, but also act; not only plan, but also believe." From the moment I threw the motarboard onwards, I told myself I shall dream, act, plan and believe. That's the key to success as I motivated myself. Student life is officially over, and I'm looking forward towards the next stage of life with excitement, curiousity and a tinge of nervousness. I will figure out what I want, yeps.

That day was an interesting day. With tonnes of emotions mixing up at the same time when I went up on stage. That day, I started to miss school; the science library that I spent 14 hours everyday during the examination weeks, those lecture halls that I entered late most of the time, the people I met, the lecturers that I have lovehate relationship with... I'm missing it all.

Doc He actually texted me that day upon I graduated, "Hey Big guy, take care and I know you are going to make it big in the near future". Haha, it was heartwarming to receive that sms (minus the word "big guy"). I'm not sure am I going to make it big in the future, but I'm really touched and delightful to receive such blessing, especially when the road in front of me is still blurry and unclear. At least, he gave me a feel of assurance.

Photos:

My first group of laboratory friends, and we spent the next three years together.

Parents.

Alvin Tay (my uncle), Alvin's Tay Father (my granduncle), my folks and I. Very messy relationship indeed.

Weijie - The handsome boy, who I got to know through Thomas. We started to talk, and eventually we shared secrets.

The Tay boys. Alvin and Thomas are just like twins.
(They are damn alike, if you know what I mean. )

Alvin Tay - My uncle, who shares my troubles, who drives me out for supper, who is never late for lectures and who wipes his girlfriend's mouth using his hankerchief after meal. Aww sweet.

Thomas Tay - As sensitive as me as said by many. A good friend to talk to, a good study buddy of mine, a good leader in projects. But his words are never that convincing. Haha.

Microbiology peeps!

Peiyan - my lend-notes-buddy (1), my poly friend Peishan's sister, my chitchat 38, my gossip buddy, my BITCH!

Elyana - who I thought was so like Ivy Liu Jingfen, character wise.

Zhen Xiao Mei - My lend-notes-buddy (2), my hot tempermental sis, my lab partner for Molecular Genetics, project buddy, mj buddy, and the list goes on.

Tong ah tong - My lend-notes-buddy (3), and whose mum likes me wor. Haha. My best lab partner who is easy going and temper-less (that was before she got attached, opps).

PS: Without this three lend-notes-buddies, I will probably fail a few modules. Haha.

Kendrick - Mr Teacher-to-be. And dude, you wanna change girlfriend? Haha.

Jo Jo Joanna - One of my closest female friend among the OG. She's smart, she's damn white, she's hawt!

Pamela - haha who almost quarrelled with me over a bottle and a chair before I knew her. LoL. The library gang who eats chicken chunks olio every other day...

Joey! - Mr Nice boy who is cute and from the same camp as me.

Nixie - who is freaking tall in real. A fan of DBSK, and who eyes always looks around PREYING for hawt people using his "attena". Good luck for your summer sem dude!

Ho Teck - the doctor to be.

And Yuanhao (my secondary, and poly friend, and supposedly uni mate in Queensland) came for my graduation unintentionally. For he is the future brother in law of Lois, who happens to my project mate in Bioinformatics.

The throwing-motarboard gang! My very disgraceful moment, cause my motarboard went sideway, passed through some plants, a couple of stairs and landed on some floor 20m away. Haha.

That's it. My graduation day, my undergraduate years. To the friends I met for the three years, good luck for your future endeavour. Live on with your dreams, and live life to the fullest. We might not be meeting up as often as before due to work commitment, but if we give in wholeheartedly for the friendships, an heart to heart bonding is definitely more precious then physical bonding. Good luck peeps.

The route in front of me may seems unclear, but I'm lucky to have a few months to think through it. I love this little break as I told butt the other day. I don't feel as pessimistic as before, and at least now I got the time to figure what I want.

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Met up with a few old friends these days. Feel good that the feeling is still the same after not meeting up for so long.

On Wednesday, met up with Kok Guan, Poh Soo, and Butt. Sent off KG the brother at the airport. The dinner session at the Thai restaurant was short but heartwarming. It's nice talking to them and update one another about our own lives. We used to have the same mentalities when we were young. Our topics usually involved talking about what we gonna do upon graduating from Ngee Ann, gossiping about the happenings between the polytechnic friends, fight hard for the same project etc. And now, all of us are living with different aims in lives, living in different parts of the world, but yet the frienship is still as strong as ever. Good luck bro, I will see you in a year time... =)

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On Thursday, met up with Yuanhao together with Hao and Jun. We started to reminiscence those NPCC days in secondary days, those waiting-for-one-another-to-finish-lecture polytechnic days. Haha. And now, this boy has matured and found an aim in life. For he's going to take up Ph.D in Queensland, and is working on some mosquito vectors... Good luck future Doc. GoH!

A not so prepared shot.

Boys.

With Yuanhao's girlfriend.
Loi's sister, Priscillia (see above, graduation photos).

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On Friday, met up with the boys. Went for a nice Zi Char as recommended by GL, following by a nice chill out at cafe de mar. It's nice sitting by the beach talking to them, talking about future, about relationships, about investments, about everything under the stars...

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On Saturday, met up with butt, Kris and Irene. Celebrated Irene's birthday at a Japanese buffet restaurant in Riverside Hotel. Chill out at Barracks. Nice meeting up.

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On Sunday, I woke up pretty much late at around 2pm, had a bowl of Wanton mee, skipped the planned swim session with the best friend, and sat down in front of the computer and looked back into some old entries found in this blog. I had a great laugh with some incidents that happened these three years. I had my shares of fun, and I had my shares of sorrow as well.

As heard from a friend's friend, he thinks that blogging is just a way of being "wayang", a way to catch attention. Simply put, he thinks that blogging is kindda dumb. For me, I think that blogging is a way to vent my anger, a way of communicating with friends who I can't meet but want to share my life with, a self reminder about the things that once played a very signifcant part in my life (just in case I lost those fond or sad memories I once had).

About dreams. I once fall hard. Reality has once caused me to hide away all my hopes and dreams away, but as I looked back into the thoughts I once penned down on this blog, it keeps me motivated to find back the real meaning of life again. These days, I've been setting aside time to clear a little space in the corners of my mind, so as to fill up the dreams I once had.

About friends. I lost contacts with many friends, lost the feelings I once shared with some dear ones. But as I looked back into the parties, gatherings, celebrations we once had, I feel much close with them, all over again.

About school. I so hate school as I kept broadcasting on this blog. But as I looked back into those entries, I had a great laugh. Am I really that pathetic back then??? Haha. As I threw the motarboard the other day, all these sad memories has became fond ones. One day, I will miss NUS, and I know I will...

About blogging. As I am typing the last few sentences on this entry, I know I will be missing this blog in the future. But I am determined to end this blog with this last entry. It marks the end of my undergraduate years which I had a lovehate relationship with. One day, I might be blogging again but on a new blog... Till that day comes, I will find my aims towards life...

Goodbye..