S-T-U-P-I-D

Today's the first paper, and is a damn-fucking-alot-of-expectation paper. Is my favourite module for the sem, but it became a totally cui-ness. I can't do a complusory essay worth 20 marks, and have no time for another 20 marks essay. And I had already wrote like 14 pages worth of chunks... Someone get a knife and kill me please~.

Yesterday was talking to thomas and py over dinner at school. And py was saying that getting into local uni meant u are 10% among the rest, a govt statisitic I guess. Yeah, ironically, I think I shouldn't be here. Is either I was a lucky freak when I apply cause I was at the 9.999999...%, or they put my application into the wrong box. I should be in the "rejection list" you see.

People who know me would know how much efforts I put in this semester. And I never know studies could be such a pain-in-the-ass (yes. I slacked thru my entire pri-sec-poly life). When I put in 100%, people put in 200%. When I put in 200%, people put in 300%. When I put in 300%, people still get the As coz they are genius, and I'm a dumbwit.

And so, my conclusion now is, is either:

1. I'm stupid.

2. I'm damn fucking stupid.

3. My brain is make up of stupid cells, stupid neurons, stupid brain juices.

IF NOT WHAT U TELL ME. I have become millions, trillions times more hardworking this sem, even Jun commented "is my sem" coz i did surprisingly ok for my CAs. But yet I fuck it up again during the exam. Am really truly dissappointed with myself.

1.5 years to go, can I make it?

Thailand Advertisements help in de-stressing

I never know that Thailand has accept the gays to such an extent.
Gay advertisement with condoms!!! Haha.
But the bolster thingy amused me somehow. Haha.



And this next one is awwwww sweet.



Haha, and a very hilarious one. Haha.



Damn, I hope I can write the 5 essays later at 1pm.
Boo. Haha.

Hear me RANT!

Nothing can get into my head anymore!!!
Shall continue tomo morning...
The first paper on sat comprises 5 essays,
Haha, what a way to kickstart.

I hope in just a *blink-blink*
5th Dec 2007, 7pm will come!
And I will go for a good meal with the uni peeps,
And play MJ overnight.
The next day shall see me at Sentosa with butt for a 1-1 outing.
(We have not been having 1-1 outings for ages.)
Hurhur. Yes, I planned ahead!!! - not for the exams though!
Wait long long lah shawn!!

Watched clips on youtube randomly.
And this caught my attention.
Is so sad, but yet so touching.
Nice.

Nothing is the world is greater then the love from the family.

Thanks mum for the afternoon snacks these mugging days. =)

The Finale

School officially ends yesterday. I was so tired that I fall asleep right after school, and skipped the night cardio class due to a bad headache.

Decided to have a dip in the pool after the last biochem test on tues, but the sun failed me. Nonetheless, I had a nice therapeutic swim. My back hurts like ass-being-fcuk after siting too long at the desk these days. Hahaha. (Just an analogy la. Maybe "that" doesn't hurts as much. Haha. How would I know?! LoL.) And I decided not to go for my yearly medical appointment on friday as I think is a waste of time to queue for like two hours, to see the doctor for five mintues. Probably he would have repeat what he said last year, "Swim more, swimming is good for your back."

Sent the cousin to the hospital on the same fateful tuesday night. His cancer is spreading faster then thought, even though he just had an operation two three weeks ago. Life is so vulnerable and unpredictable. We should live each day to the fullest without regrets, cause no one will know what will happen in the next second...

Thanks HK for the blessing all the way from Australia. =) Hope u can get the honours project of ur choice too! =)

And to my fellow muggers:

JIAYOU!

STUDY HARD HARD now, and we PLAY HARD HARD after examS! =)

Exam Stress

I knew I'm having exam stress when I have:

1. Red swollen eyes.
2. Pimples oozing.
3. Insomia, with ketogenesis and glucaneogenesis haunting me.
4. Bad sleeping habit. Woke up at nights, slept in the days.
5. A change in appetite. EATING more then usual!!! Damn! This is the worst of all.

Have a nice chat with Zen on friday, and was happy to hear from him again after 800 years! haha. Army days... no brain cracking activities (e.g. studying), the worst could have been doing COS duties and saikang. Somehow, I miss those days. But having the idea of going back to serve for another 4 months just stop me. Human are just contradicting creatures.

Appreciated the call from WeiHao and sms from Jun today. Little actions like these make me smile for the day. =)

Back to the books. I'm a slow turtle.

Dreams

I hope.
I dream.
I persevere.

I will give my best shot,
Regardless of past failure(s).

Conquering the exams.

*Motivated*

A short break

I need a break today.

And so I had one.

Went siglap for the tues's waffle.

And then bugis for desserts.

Haha. Shiokness.

Thanks buddy.

Tomo marks the start of the biochem revision.

Seriously, I hate them to the core.

It's freaking boring, and requires lot of memory work.

I can't memorize stuffs for nuts.

So I can sense that I will be dead for the paper.

Agrhhhh. Maybe I should try the ginko pills. Haha.

To the fellow muggers:

Happy studying guys! Good luck for the papers.