Saw me driving home along the expressway; After sending the best friends home from our usual cuppas. With an old album I digged from the car. "Brokeback Mountain OST" it is.
No, don't justify me as a gay cause I cried in the show.
Feeling rather sluggish and lethargic today. The study mood isn't there either. And so I let my mind wander...
Out of no reason, I remembered the scene at a 3 star hotel at KL, Whereby I had my first trip with the poly peeps at 17. Fiona, meihua and I shared the same room, And there I was disturbing them with a "smelly pillow" early in the morning. I somehow missed the laughter we once shared.
Then I drifted further up to T.Bintan, Laying on the beach, gazing up into the sky. Many shooting stars I saw, With this girl I lost contact with.
Then I dreamt back to an evening 9 years ago, Somewhere outside the school bus stop. Jun, Gl and I was waiting for the bus home, We were planning to choose the same class after streaming (we weren't in the same class back then). And we ended up being real friends for life.
Little moments like these are remembered for a life time, Though each of us grew up selecting diff pathways in lives, We once crossed while walking thru our pathways, And it's fate that bought us together.
Growing up is never easy. You hold on to things that were. You wonder what's to come. But that night, I think we knew it was time to let go of what had been and look ahead to what would be. Other days, now days, days to come. The thing is, we didn't have to hate each other for getting older. We just had to forgive ourselves for growing up.
As we grow older, things must change, But they don't always have to end. Even though it is different now, My friends are still my dearest friends.
YeaH! Time flies real fast. Recess week comes as fast as I got adapt to the new sem. 40% MBio test, 20% BioChem test, 10% food and Health assignment are on due after the hell week. Sobz. How great was that. Haha. I did had my fair share of fun the week before though.
TUESDAY - After physiology test last tues, I went to bake with the galfriends. (And I think I was the best baker! Haha).
My double chocolate cake.
Supposely chocolate truffle cake, that tastes like the one above.
Butt with her muffin lookalike cupcake.
My done-for-the-day.
WEDNESDAY - Went to Zouk with Jun and some sec friends on Wed. The whole phuture seems more like a "gay night" then mambo night, and the worst could have been the two transexuals that came and danced besides me. -_-" The music was good though, not until I vomit the next moment I reached home... I got myself a weak stomach (or maybe liver) ever since the last drunk scene at Phuket.
THURSDAY - Basically, I slept the whole day.
FRIDAY - Went for MJ after school with the uni peeps, and cabbed down to Zouk to find Kris right after. I didn't managed to get in the end, and luckily brother was around town to fetch me home. Called the best friend up for supper after I changed into a pair of shorts, and we spent a good session racing at the arcade.
SATURDAY - It was the "Mid Semester Break Celebration Dinner" with the uni cliques. Waraku at Cuppage was as good as the one at Marina Square. Caught a flick - Underdog, before heading towards Harry's for a drink. My drink tasted like fruit punch though, and zeewai got the worst drink - diluted lime water, whatever u call it, haha! Let's work hard for the upcoming tests guys!!! Pictures up later after I get it from Alvin.
SUNDAY - Breakfast with the burgies at Jalan Kayu could have been the weirdest thing a bunch of guys would do since all of us live in the west. But this could have been one of the most "ordinary" thing we have had done over the ten years. The routine updates of their lives, marvellous roti prata, with selegie's soya bean milk, they made my day with a smile. Brotherly love. 10 years friendship with them was something I cherished alot, and I hope that are many more 10 years to count on. Caught Chunk and Larry at Jurong Point thereafter, and it was good! I have a great laugh. I don't mind being Larry in the show!!! Heh.
MONDAY - I slept till 6:30 pm. 18 hours in total. *claps*
TUESDAY (today) - I shall go for a morning gym session, follow by a 20 laps swim, finish up food and health, and have a haircut... =)
In the later half of this year, I think I did many things I never did before. I thought more about my future, and am working really hard towards it for the first time in my life. My lifestyle changed entirely; outings were minimized, late night calls were reduced. I spent most of the time in the Mac trying to figure those great discoveries and theories by those "already dead" molecular biologists and physiologists. I just can't imagined doing "last min" studies like I did for the secondary and poly years, as well as uni first year. I would prolly submit an empty paper if I did that again this sem. Year 2 is no child play. Hopefully, I would get what I deserved at the end of the year.
As I got myself busy with those study stuffs, I found out how much I neglected my dear friends and family. Need to do something about it. Nothing is more then having a superhotnicecuppa with the budds in the cafe, or having a simple weekend breakfast with the folks at the market. I miss real fun. On the lighter note, I'm lucky to have a bunch of nice uni cliques to play chee-go-ba and hei-bai-pei with me during boring lectures. LoL.
I am damn-looking-forward to the December holidays.
It's not an easy task to act cheerful and happy on the outside, when deep inside, the tears are actually flowing uncontrollably.
It's hard being stressed out and desperately need a shoulder to cry on, but yet got to appear strong and jovial as that's what people brand you as.
I had a great night run today. A long slow run from my-house-to-clementi-and-back-to-my-house to readjust my thoughts of current situation. I felt really helpless with schoolwork these days, and never have enough time for the tutorials. Boo. I read finished chapters and chapters of lecture notes (today), only to find out I know nothing while trying to attempt those tutorial questions. Molecular Biology wasn't as fun as I used to think it is, Biochemistry is still as detestable as ever. Passionate in life sciences doesn't mean I could excel in it, and I know I can't. It is just not in me. Somehow, I missed the old (poly) days, my freedom, and my happy-go-lucky nature. Saw a shooting star when running back just now, and I made a wish. And I hope it will be a wish come true.
It's almost 4am in the morning, and I'm not even on the first page of the molecular biology notes. Test in two days time, and I'm so unprepared! I declined a clubbing invitation today, intended to catch up with the studies, but went to watch Hairspray instead. Haha, and it was good! Heh. Queen Latifah's voice was power, I like it. But I thought that James Marsden got more charm then Zac EfroN! Zac was a good male protagonist of the show though. He just will grab people's attention. HAha. Nikki Blonsky's "Good Morning Baltimore" was ear pleasing, Zac's Ladies' Choice was my favourite, and Queen's "I know where I've been" was damn touching. Will get back to the books after a good night rest. Happy studying fellow muggers! Nice gathering with u ppl tonight. =)
THE CELL kills me. Feel like watching High School Musical agaiN!
