Mood: Sad, very sad - I sick of this long sad journey of my life Read: Cell Biology notes on cytoskeleton by Prof Teo
"Only the strongest survives."
True, a very constructive saying indeed. For everything in the world, there's a competition. Be it the results one took starting from PSLE to the Os, to the As (polytechnic in my case), and to the uni eventually; or to the snatching of food by the poor kids living in Africa and North Korea; or to the two men going after a lady.
All these are competitions, hence there's always a winner; and there's always a loser. The winner goes to the best university in town, while the loser repairs the water pipes as a technician. The winner gets the food while the loser starves to death. The winner gets the maiden, and the loser is left with a broken heart. Life is fair isn't it? You want something, you vie for it. If you get it, you are a champ, and you get the applause. If you don’t get it, you are a loser, and you get the jeers and mocks.
Is okay, losers can always start all over again. They can put in 100% more effort, 200% more sweat, 300% more energy. The technician can take up a part time degree. The starving boy can snatch back the food. The man can go after a new girl when his broken heart is mended. They will become winners one day.
But then again, what happen if the technician has no money to go for the course because he has a mouth of ten to feed? What happen if the starving boy is already left with his last breath? What happen if the man has a broken heart that can’t be heal? They will be losers always. There are no more competitions, and they can’t be winners.
I sent in an application for a competition. Their job is to select. They rejected my application. I have no competition to compete. And they already declared me as a born-loser.
I was that technician; that starving boy; and that broken heart man.
To first begin with, I'm never one of those who really anti-PRC, unlike some of my friends (who apparently had some bad encounters with them before). I just thought that they came all the way over to Singapore to study or for work, thus may appear more "kiasu" then we Singaporeans. Is a way of surviving I guess? Afterall, living in another country is not an easy thing? I reckon.
Then there was this Saturday when Thomas, py and I were studying in school for the upcoming test. We went over to the arts FAc for dinner, and there was only one stall there that was still opened. It sells Sichuan food, and that explained the number of PRCs over there. In short, we were surrounded by PRCs in a couple of minutes. After buying the food, I went over to get a table, while T and py were waiting for the steamboat set. I saw this table at the side of the canteen that might seems like a good place to sit down for dinner, and have a good rest. Thus, I walked over...
When I was just five steps away from the table, a cheena bitch ran passed me like there is 80% COACH bag sales in front of ME. I was freaking stunned by her action, and before I manage to gain back conscious… uh yes, that fucking wretch took my table!!! -_-” By the way, most of the tables at that time were empty in fact. It was a sat evening!
I can’t really be bothered by her, but her actions really disgrace the country she is representing. Doesn’t she know that this little action of hers is good enough to show the ugliest side of humankind? Doesn’t she know that because of people like her and her comrades, a lot of people are condemning that country C even it is a good place with nice scenery, delicious culinary, strong culture. I now understand why so many friends of mine dead set against them.
Yesterday in the living room, while lying on my mum's shoulders waiting to "invite" the god at 12mn, we had a conversation.
Mum: "This year not bad huh, your sister pregnant. All my wishes are coming true one by one." Me: "Issit! So what's next? Pushing bro to get marry!" Mum: "Yes, that's the next priority." Me: "Like that you no more worries liao." Mum: " No lo, still got u this small one." Me: "What's with me?" (me giving that fuck face) Mum: "Hmmmm, ur graduation, ur marriage, aiyoh so many." Me: "Please lah, I don't need you to worry leh. I am a damn good boy lo." Mum (tapping my head): "yeah, i know. so my third priority is to strike 4D." Me (stunned): "Hahaha, give me some money if you really strike it BIG!" Mum: "Yeah, I will give u $3000 to go slimming salon if i strike $10,000. I promise" Me: "THANKS HUH!!!" (then she left to pray)
Haha. My little cousin, justin. I show u how kids grow.
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Hahhaa. time flies fast lah. Damn it. I'm aging, sobz.
Besides the "gambling damage" which I decided to make a comeback next year, the new year is basically a good festive season to enjoy before the nightmare (tests and exams) begins. Yes, my semester officially starts. Heh heh.
CHU YI
Chu yi was at my paternal Grandma's house. It was rather causal since I meet up with them on a monthly basic.
A family (not full) photo for someone who can't join us this year. And the next 3 years to be exact.
Went to visit my maternal diagnosed-with-cancer cousin next where I bumped into ting, whose grandma's house was just a level below my uncle's house. Our folks know each other since their teen years, and her aunt is my mum's mj kahki. So apparently, when something happens to ting, I would knew it from my mum before she tells me herself (see that undesirable connection in a way).
Ting ting ting. pretty ting.
Haha. As usual, a yearly cuzzie steamboat dinner at Sister Ling's house before the battle began! Sister, brother and I were so unlucky heng that we got the same dian for blackjack. And btw, they both won that round except moi(!) who got a ah-pek next.
The battle ended 5am the next morning, and I lost 130 bucks! *cry*
CHU ER
Woke up at 9am, out at 10am, with ultra super dark circles. And I was very sexually sleep deprived. Went house-hopping from house to house of my mum's side relatives who I saw maybe once a year (unless I bumped into them on the street). So these relatives are the best to judge how much u grew over the year. And the conclusion is: I GREW ALOT (horizontally though). *cry-out-loud* On a lighter note, there were many many new members in the family, and the kids were damn adorable.
I'm in love with this two kids who are so-so-so cute. The elder bro was a handsome boy, whereas the younger boy was kawaiii neh.
haha, so cute.
Before learning how to walk, learn how to cam whore. Haha.
Dovely eyes.
Haha, yesh, this is a boY!
Mum, who wanna a grandson too.
Love him to bits.
Kiss, kiss, kiss.
The handsome brother who just woke up.
Haha, he got well after awhile.
Haha, I'm the only one (besides his dad) who he allowed to carry that day wor.
Then in the evening, it was at my sister's place for the yearly lao-yusheng with the cuzzies. Abalone instead of sashimi this year wor. Haha. The night was actually created for the losers to recoup their loss the day before, and for the winners to win more.
The battle ended at 7am the next day, and it was a 150 bucks in total lost this year.. I WILL MAKE IT A COMEBACK NEXT YEAR!!! haha
CHU SAN
Finally, I had my sleep before meeting up with the uni peeps for a gathering. *Sorry guys that I couldn't stay long enough for the steamboat dinner wor.* Went to sent Alex off at the airport. That msn-minesweeper buddy is going to Brisbane to further his studies too . Brother picked me up from the airport before we went to the temple at Loyang to pray. The night ended up at his girlfriend's house, where we caught a damn old movie by stephen chow. And here I am blogging. hahaa.
Over here, I wish all my family members and friends to have a good year ahead.
AND I WISH:
The still schooling one will have many many As this year. The working ones will have a smooth career. Couples' loves will still be everlasting. Unmarried couples will get married this year. Married ones will have kids this year. Married-very-long-already-and-have-kids-one will have grandchildren. Singles out that will meet their right one. Economy crisis will be over before it come. NUS grading system will get demolished, and students will learn thru projects and trainings.
Dad will strike 4D. Mum will win many many money at MJ. Sister and brother-in-law will have babies. Brother will get married. I will try to lost weight. Ah ma ah gong will still be in the pink of their health. Jun will find the right girl. Guo will get good grades. Hao will find a good job. Butt will reach her desirable weight. Bro Guan will fly. Uni clique - alvin n christine, zhenyun n kendrick, thomas n peiyan, tong zai will get ALL As for the exams. Ting will burnt down like her workplace. Irene will have a good career. Kris and gf will last. HongKiat and Poh will have good lives in australia and Canada respectively. Zen will get into NUS. Hahaha. That's all.
Tata.
Ps: Will only blog ocassionally on this blog. Just opened a private one. Some things are better left unsaid. =)
Is good to meet up with old friends you haven't met for ages. And yeah, today was great. The topic went along the line of careers, which is good cause it's indicating we are growing up. But I'm troubled.
Yes, after one big round, I don't know what I want in future. Research is a definitely no-no. Sales? Haha. I'm infamous of giving people the fuck face (thou im considering it la). Technical field is just like any 9-5 job that I surely will hate. Education? Nah, is a job for the siant. The principal will fire me once my vulgarities reach her ears. So how? Die.
If only I own a piece of land, I would grow and rear my own aquarium fishes in an aquaculture farm that incoporates well with the latest biotechnology techniques, and includes it with a rural style spa wellness concept, and healthy lifestyle cafe. Then it would be the perfect idea of my good career.
WAIT LONG LONG LAH! Haha, though I will try my best to reach there.
