A hour left.

I actually ordered for the graduation robe at the very last minute before the system shut down at 12pm today. Haha, perhaps it shows how much that I do not want to graduate. Anyway, results going to be out in a hour time and I'm so not going to care about it. Aiyah, say say only lah! I am hoping for the best lah since its the last semester. I want to see at least 5 As. Dream on! FAT-ASS hope.

Yup, I'm back from Taiwan. And the first thing that welcome me was this Singaporean-chao-ah-gua that cut Christine and my queue when we were queuing for passport verification at the immigration counter. How irony it is when none of the Taiwanese pissed me off during these 14 days, but the very next moment I was in my country, I was make pissed. Then again, I should get used to the self centered lifestyle here.

Today marks the end of my school life, and I'm looking forward to the four months of national service that I have yet to serve. So that I can serve and F off... =)

Self Thought

I'm off to taiwan in 6 hours time. I'm packing up all my emotions, feelings, negative thoughts together in the bag, and hopefully I will come back home to be a better man. I figured out that I will be entering a phase of depression when I come back home in two weeks time. I'm not being an extremist though. There are things in my life that truly makes me happy but it's not enough to fill up the emptiness in within me. In fact, I lost myself too; my confidence, my dreams about the future, my envisions, my ambitions, and anything that transformed me from a happy go lucky guy to what I am today.

I will, and I must find that the spirit in within me. That guy who once love his life so much.

COUNTDOWN

Yup! Countdown to the last paper of my entire university life.
9 fucking hours to go but I'm not going to study anymore!!!
Haha, not because I'm confident about myself, but becoz I gave up. -_-"

I reckon Hormones and Health will be the same as Cardio last sem. Sigh.
Grade B- will be expected, Grade B+ will be a bonus.
Grade B means history is going to repeat. Arghhh.

And the library is damn quiet these days.
Most people I know have finished their exams!
I guess the only other two biomedical science students who study in library today were Kaiting and the studious guy who carry a purple crumpler bag!!!
Haha, yeah. It was that pathetic.

9 more hours and that's it. =)

Taiwan here I come!!! Please, B+ please!!!!!!!

Last Run

Hello blog, I can't sleep now cause I slept too much since Tuesday afternoon. I guess I had slept more than twenty five hours within these two days. It's been a super hectic week and i'm glad it's all over. Exam is finishing before I started to panick, and soon the summer holiday will arrive. I'm welcoming Taiwan with my two arms open. I wanna eat my 炸鸡排，珍珠奶茶， 鲁肉饭， 麻辣火锅!!!

But then again. I don't know what to do when I come back from Taiwan. I will get my results which I got a feeling is fucking screwed (worst of all semesters due to my nicely arranged timetable).

I will go back to army to serve that fucking four months.

I will go for the convocation ceremony which is something my folks will look forward to. At least I have fufill the "promise" I've made to Dad three years ago, for continue my stay in NUS if I pass my Organic Chemistry... Damn, and I did passed! Things might be so different now if only I failed that tragic paper. I might be in Australia studying marine biology and ecology at the University of Queensland, or in Canada studying Biotechnology at University of British Columbia, and the list goes on with reference to those acceptance letters that are still in my drawer. I have no regrets though, that's life. At least I learnt quite alot in NUS... Not in the bad way which I kept wincing all these three years, but rather in a realistic manner... As in I learnt how to be more realistic, more competitive, and more independent. I met many acquaintances, and some true friends. I have my share of fun, and sorrows. But still, I miss those type of big group bonding back in poly days, whereby everyone in the tutorial group feel close as one. University is too independent for someone like me. Haha.

I have packed most of my notes (except Hormones and Health which I will be having the paper next fri). I have sell all my notes to the newspaper collector except this semester one (in case I fail).

I will keep my pencilbox in some drawers until maybe Little Bryce know how to scribble. Then I can pass all my colourful markers, highlighters, and pens to him. I'm surprised by the number of stationaries I have collected these three years. Is like "Wow(!), Sean, u spend at least a hundred dollars on those stuffs!!!" I can't really study with black and white notes la, I will just sleep.

Then I don't know what's next. Try to get a job? Go for Masters as planned? I feel like going to do a year of volunteer work in Africa after Butt has aspired me. It's so random though. Haha.

Maybe I will get some aspiration in Taiwan......

Till then.

Sigh.