To an Especially Important Friend

Dear buddy,

I know that you are going through the lowest point of your life. But as you are drowning in your own tears, stumble wearily through obstacles and problems, stress and worries; just remember that I’m always here, right beside you, to care. Sometimes, things are just difficult to convey through the mouth you see; especially between us, two big guys. But seeing you burst down in tears in the car, I’m suddenly lost of words. I hope our presence just now did make you better, at least, by a bit.

God is never fair, brother. Some people are just better off then others. Some work hard to score, while some merely put in much effort to have the same outcome. This is how unfair life could be. But as you sank into your agony, complaining how devastated life is, do believe that god did do some justice. At least, you are here, healthy and strong to look after your sickly parents. At least you are here, with a strong will to provide her with care and concern she need at least for the next two years. You got to be strong, because you are the only one left, the only pillar for them to rely on.

Life could have been agonizing but life could have been as fun as well. Reminiscing those days where we laughed like cocks in movies, those sessions spent in cafes and restaurants, gossiping about anything under the sky, etc. Those have become parts of my memories. To be in simple, friends are here to care. Trust me, you will make it big one day if you don’t give up. Life is a long journey. Not everyday is a sunny day, but neither all are gloomy. Try waking up everyday with a smile, telling yourself today is a happy day, and you will be happy eventually. I know it could be tiring to face so much in life. It’s definitely not easy for a 22 years old lively young man to feel the burden of someone a hundred. You will have my support. And I’m always here to share. This world is in such disarray. Pathetic and sad. Cold and distant. But as you walk through this life, and through this living hell, a real happiness is awaiting for you. Endure. My strong friend.

Countdown to X'mas -> 10 days

Haha, Lyon has uploaded the pictures taken during the publicity wave. And so, I shall post some here. Funny geisha, "no one want to press" magician, "peeping mary" box, haha, good job people! =)

Yet another fulfilling week. =)

Monday was spent resting at home, after a hectic week of publicity wave. Nothing is more comfy then lying on the bed, tunning on some fine music, flipping some fashion magazines. To add on, it was a rainy day. And so, I hide myself under my blanket, replenishing the energy I had used up then.

Tuesday turned out fine too. Went shopping with Mum and Sis at Vivo City. Women are horrendous!!! Basically, they bought a wardrobe of clothes! Sis insisted on buying me a GAP sweater for the cold lecture halls, but I declined the offer, in case I really quit school next sem. CHOY!!! We shall see bout it. =P

MJ session again with Huanxin, Joon and Vivien on Wednesday. And guess what, this is the first time I won some money for the year after so many MJ sessions (The calendar reads December thou)!!! Met up with Tingz, Butt, Jun and Kiat to plan Taiwan Itinerary thereafter. Hmmmm, I'm really getting excited about the Taiwan trip, except for the fact that results will be out on the third day of the trip put everything to a off. -_-"

Met up with the army guys on Thursday. It's amazing about how we are taking different pathways of life now. Eugene gone to further his studies at ANU (australia), while Ben, Vincent, Yiping and I are in NTU, SMU and NUS respectively. KuaiLan, Jimmy and Wenchuan had oreodi found their jobs, while Zen decided to be his own boss. Haha, and yet we were once the blur like sotong chao recruits bitching about how army kill us back then. =)

And today, Jun, butt and butt's friend Meiqi are coming to my house for MJ session again!!! I will make sure I make a hole in their wallets later. Kekeke. Always feel comfortable and relax at this period of the year. This year Xmas I shall be make it a difference. No more parties nor countdown, just hope to spent the night at home accompanying my family. =)

This Christmas won't be lonely, cause I've longed given up. =)

If only life was just having fun daily...

My life is back!!! - reads DX's MSN nick.
Haha, Shawn's life is back too.
Right after the last paper on Tues,
Whereby I was late for 15 mins or so. -_-"

Met up with Hao and GL right after the paper,
And had a shopping spree at Vivo City.
Well, didn't really get anything,
Vivo wasn't as great as I thought.
But with them, everything is fun!

Met up with some poly mates for coffee on Wed,
It's kinnda weird for not meeting them after so long;
And I did have some withdrawn symptoms.
Luckily everything turn out fine. =)

Thurs to Sunday were spent working on an event.
Tiring but there was a sense of satisfaction in within.
Went for a MJ session at Vivien's house right after with e uni pals.
And I won 80 cents at the end of the day!!! LoL. -_-"
Gave the winnings to Jimmy, Vivien's younger bro to buy sweets.
A cute, smart but notorious kid.

Will be going to gym b4 meeting Butt for lunch tomo.
And some others pre-planned activities follows.
I'm kindda looking forward to a brand new lively week. =)

I have a crush recently.
But due to some ironical reasons,
I couldn't do anything but to try to end it,
Cause I know it's something that won't work out no matter what.

Thought of the day:

Love is something that could not be controlled. Be it between a man to a woman, a man to a man, or a woman to a woman. The society is getting so open these days that it’s no longer a wrong thing that human are having different sexual orientations. In fact, I do admire those people who are honest about their sexual desires for the same sexes, and able to walk out of the closets as long as the relationship stays healthy and the love is true. Joanna asked me this morning whether I will fall in love with a guy, and my answer was a direct no. I can’t be a bisexual, or maybe, not yet. Perhaps, I’m bought up in such a way that I know I must fall for girls. Though so from my own point of view, I think that bisexuality is a very sad thing. As easy as it sounds, some might think that they are the lucky ones, as they can fall in love with both sexes. I feel that they are the ones who can’t love wholeheartedly. Even thou they might be faithful; they would still crave for people of another gender opposite of their partners. They can’t love with all their hearts and unconditionally even though how hard they tried to. They can’t choose, because they don’t know what they want actually. They desire for both. They are the ones in between homosexuality and heterosexuality, the victims of sexuality revolution.

Life could have been an irony.