End Post of 2008

Current Mood: Calm, yet confused
Current Song: 突然好想你 by Mayday
Current Read: The Lovely Bones by Alice Sebold

I suppose this will be my last entry of the year 2008, cause 2009 is starting in just about 17 hours time. Two years back, this time, I'm in Taiwan having the best countdown in my entire life. Alex was there with us, and now he's getting married! Haha, congrats dude. One year ago, this time, I was getting ready to cycle overnight with some dear old friends. Kok Guan was there with us, and now he's in New Hampshire. Haha, have fun there bro, and date a Hispanic woman! This year shall be a simple affair of drinking by the beach with the friends who stick to me thin and thick all these 11 to 13 years.

Wrapping up 2008, I have my fair share of ups and downs. School was as usual busy, though I'm enjoying it in another way. I went to the casino for the first time in June with the folks, and won myself 500 bucks. Then I got myself a little trip to Hongkong with the buddies after working as a hard labour at Ulu Tuas, and came back from hongkong with four big blisters and two small ones. Baby Bryce was born in October, and now he's the little tyrant of the house with his thunder cries. Oh yeah, he can even do a hi-5 back to me now though he's only 3 months old. Hmmmm, I met a girl, and she rejected me; I met a boy and I rejected him. And I concluded that I attract more gays then girls, which is goddamn sad.

I'm reckon the new year will be a year of crisis. First and foremost, I will be one of the pathetic victims of the economic crisis since I'll be entering the workforce this coming June when the economy is right at its downfall. But the worst could have been the fact that I will be turning 25 (though I just celebrated by 24th birthday couple of days back), and I'm kinda sure I'm entering my quarter-life crisis RIGHT NOW.

Symptoms of Quarter-Life Crisis
(extracted from Wikipedia)

√ feeling "not good enough" because one can't find a job that is at one's academic/intellectual level (starting soon I guess)

√ frustration with relationships, the working world, and finding a suitable job or career (ahhh, i don't want to work!)

√ confusion of identity (not in the gay way la!)

√ insecurity regarding the near future (yes, very!!!)

√ insecurity concerning long-term plans, life goals (i've never meet any of my goals since 2004 ended.)

√ insecurity regarding present accomplishments (not enough A's for the degree! haha!!!)

√ re-evaluation of close interpersonal relationships (true friends, a few will do.)

X disappointment with one's job (not yet, soon. But I hope not..)

√ nostalgia for university, college, high school or elementary school life (those around me will know...)

X tendency to hold stronger opinions (still okay la!)

√ boredom with social interactions (I start to hate clubbing recently.)

X loss of closeness to high school and college friends (I'm fortunate we are still close over the years.)

√ financially-rooted stress (overwhelming college loans, unanticipatedly high cost of living, etc.) (and that stupid economic crisis!)

√ loneliness (no comments)

X desire to have children (no comments)

X a sense that everyone is, somehow, doing better than you (luckily I still have that little bit of self esteem left...)

I scored 11/16 of the above-mentioned symptoms, how great(!!!). But nonetheless, I'm still looking towards 2009 positively, and hopefully I would get what I want at the end of the year. =) 2009, here I come!!!

HAPPY 2009 BABES AND HUNKS!!!

Malacca Trip

Current Mood: Relax
Current Song: 捕夢人-潘裕文
Current Read: The Lovely Bones by Alice Sebold

ALOHA!

Just came back from an impromptu self-drive car trip from Malacca with some of the family members. Nothing interesting there, probably just some nice heritage tours to follow, but the foods there were GOOD(!). Tried the famous Hainanese Chicken Ball Rice, Satay Celup, Melaka Assam Laksa, but my favorite still goes to Chendol with the superb black sugar syrup. It was orgasmic.

Clockwise from top left: Chicken Ball Rice, Assam Laksa, Satay Celu and Chendo.

The Heritage Tour

Random pictures.


Mr. Watermelon Man
The one and only thing I bought from Malacca.
The shopping there was WORST then Singapore!


Home sweet home.

Besides the Malacca trip, the lifestyle after exams has been relaxing. It basically involves of catching up with friends I haven't meet for a long time, WII-ing with the brother, babysitting little Bryce, as well as practicing VAMPIRE-ISM (Haha, I have been sleeping at 8am everyday in the morning, and wake up at 12mn ever since the school holiday starts).

Random pictures just uploaded from my handphone:

Bryce.

Bryce again.

Bryce being kissed.

Bryce being hugged.


In the arms of 外公.

Aftermath of studying too much (1): Good luck for exam?
Wear red, eat red, and have a red head.

Aftermath of studying too much (2): Can't memorize facts?!?
Take a picture using a hand phone and look at it whenever u go.
E.g. In the toilet when u poo.

I wish December never ends,
January never comes.
Dread school.

THE EXAMS

The last lecture of cardiopulmonary systems ended with:

When you learn to appreciate the wonders of Human Physiology,
you will also begin to appreciate what our bodies can do,
and to live our lives in such a way that will preserve the body we exist in.
Human physiology, life and existence are inseparable.

A/Prof Fabian Lim
Exercise Physiologist

And yes, yours truly no nuts of this fucking module even after 13 weeks of slogging. All I can said is Human physiology, sad life and predicted C grade are inseparable. Fuck it.

I will see what I can do in the next one week. =(

Study Equations

Current Mood: Lethargic
Current Song: Way Back into Love
Current Read: Food Microbiology Practical Notes

Sigh. Exactly four more weeks to the finale, and I'm still feeling lethargic and haven't got the drive to study as yet. I really hate the idea that I will soon be leading a monotonous lifestyle of "camping" in the library for 8am - 10pm for the entire one month. But then again, I think I will hate myself more for the exam results if I choose to slack my way through till the exam. To cheer things up, the Big-A and Peiyan has already piled up many biscuits and snacks in their locker in preparation for our "stay-in" period.

Equation 1:
A: Got food + study = Sad
B: No food + study = Manic depression
(So yeah, I will pile up some tidbits too, heh)

Some friends and I always like to marvel how smart some of our schoolmates really are, and getting ourselves emo for being not-so-smart. But then again, I think we are all born to be good in some ways or another, probably just not on the studying side. Nonethelss, we will still have to get down to do the dirty work of studying. So yeah, just be it.

Equation 2:
A: Smart people + studying = Grade A
B: Smart people + no studying = Grade A-
C: Not-so-smart people + Studying = Grade B+ / B / B- / C+
D: Not-so-smart people + no studying = N.A.
(Since the last method is non applicable, I will have to study!)

Some friends and I used to reminisce about how lucky (or smart) we used to be when we were in polytechnics or colleges, and wonder how it all turned out this way. But i guess let's not stir things up to make ourselves sadder; and buck up for the remaining semesters. 我们可以的！

Equation 3:
(only apply to those who fall in equation 2c)
A: Got good luck in examination = Grade A-
B: A little bit of luck in examination = Grade B+ / B
C: No luck in examination: Grade B- / C+

Wish me some (good) luck! =(

The Finale Once More

Current Mood: Relax
Current Song: Have you Ever by Brandy
Current Situation: Cracking the brains with Respiratory Physio Notes

Yet another semester ending. One more term paper, two more practical reports, the final exams, and I will be done for the semester. Presentation for research project was over on Tuesday. And after the whole research project, I'm more or less concluded that I won't stay in the laboratory for good in the future. I just can't forsee myself "talking" to the cells and DNA everyday, and holding the pipette till the day I retired. Then again, it contradicts with my intention of furthering a master degree in Canada or US after I graduate. Haha. The path ahead seems so far and unclear.

Met up with some poly mates since Darren came back from Vietnam to visit his girlfriend (awww sweet). It was rather an impromptu meet-up. Nevertheless, it was still great to see them after countless of months. And you will be surprised to see how the girls changed when they have stepped into the working force. Audrey got a good job and still seems to be blissfully in love with her boy, BL became a pretty OL (haha, it rhythmes hor), and Butt seems to have this "i wanna to marry soon" look (haha, opps). Let's hope the New Zealand plan I had with Butt and Alo next year will be a successful one.

It will be marvelous to drive in a mini car with lovely people and listening to some old songs, and to be surrounded with green scenery, beautiful flowers, and cute animals.

Back to BASIC

Current Mood: Happy
Current Song: Warwick Ave by Duffy
Current Situation: Fucking the UROPS report

Something simple for the blog.

So sister had gave birth to a boy on the 7th instead. He had a nose and overall face shape of his dad, and lips of my sis's. Can't really determine his eyes yet, I only saw him opened them once!!! He was weighed 3.310kg, and his and sis's room number is 3310. So the family bet quite a few hundred bucks on this number for Sat and Sun 4D! Haha. Here's his blog link: Bryce's Little World

Little Bryce sleeping.

He finally opened his eyes a little on the 2nd day.

Out of the 3 tests I gone through so far, today's test seems to be the worst. I misread the last question wrongly and is like 20%!!! Damn the common pathway besides the extrinsic and intrinsic! But sigh, just be it la. Piling hopes for the other modules cause Human Physiology is totally out for me! On random, I think i should really learn thai next semester or after graduate. =)

One more month to the EXAM! Hooray! -_-"

Random Updates

Now Kok Guan's gone, and hopefully I will see a better him in a year or two. =)

And the other two handsome ones, come back guys for a diving session together!!! I miss the sun, the beach, the tan, the water, the fishes, and the escapism from reality.

Been on sleeping pills (again) these days.
Can't sleep. Always thinking about what had happened, and what will happen next.
I came to a point in time that I know I will bring it across to you with an expressionless face, a still-aching heart, and a body with no more soul. I just can't smile (like I used to) again.

Tests coming soon, reports piling up, and when everything done with, the exam follows. Sigh, wake me up when the semester is over. =)

And that little nephew of mine is coming on 6th Oct 2008. =) Waiting anxiously for his arrival. Finally a happy issue over the rest.

My tooth

I broke my tooth!

I couldn't open a bottle cap using my hands, so I decided to use my teeth to try. The cap came out eventually, but I scarified a tooth for it!!! Fuck that Allswell water chestnut drink!!!

And I guess I must be the most retarded person on earth to have a broken tooth in such a way.

Mamma mia!

Feeling: Trying to get strong
Read: Microbiology Lecture Note 1

Mamma mia the movie was surprisingly good. Ting and I went out of the movie humming "Dancing Queen". It was so ABBA!!! Meryl steep's voice was gorgeous, especially on "The Winner takes it all", not to mention that there was Pierce Brosnan's looks for Hua to drool for (since he probably can't sing at all, even though he seems to have tried real hard). Haha. Dominic Cooper's version of "Lay your love all over me" with Amanda Seyfried was my favourite scene. It was such a classic. Other than that, "money money money" tempo was nice. I like. =)

Waiting for High School Musical 3!

Shawn Tay is dead.

Feeling: Kind of calm?
Read/Write: Microbiology Practical 2 lab Report
Music: Hey Jude by The Beatles

I so love Beatles especially in sleepless nights like tonight.
Yeah, Retrophilic freak I am.

Some friends in school commented how tired I looked these days. With so many things added on together, I'm really traumatized by what has happened. There is a lowest point in everyone's life, and I just happened so to be in such situation right now. I thank those who did came to me and show care and concern. But I'm sorry, I just don't know how to break such things to you people. But really, it's appreciated. *smile*

On a random note, I feel like changing the spelling of my English name to Sean, Shayn or Shane. No specific meanings I guess, just maybe feel like living away from the past, and getting rid of those memories that hurts, especially from the past one month.

Relationships - of all kinds - are like sand held in your hand. Held loosely, with an open hand, the sand remains where it is. The minute you close your hand and squeeze tightly to hold on, the sand trickles through your fingers. You may hold onto some of it, but most will be spilled. A relationship is like that. Held loosely, with respect and freedom for the other person, it is likely to remain intact. But hold too tightly, too possessively, and the relationship slips away and is lost.

Sean Tay

I want it my way

Feeling: Gave up
Song: My Way by Elvis Presley

My way. Originated from Frank Sinatra, but i love this manly version by Elvis Presley. Strong powerful lyrics that always make me stronger.

I've loved, I've laughed and cried.
I've had my fill; my share of losing.
And now, as tears subside,
I find it all so amusing.

Just yesterday I had a quarrel. A fucking bad quarrel. If only I insisted on doing it my way, things might have been very different. Regrets, I have a few, but this would have killed me entirely. I kept pondering through the whole night, should I, or should I not. It's no longer about decision making anymore. It's no longer about hoping anymore. It's about the best for us all. I see it through. No one is at fault, just that I hate this never ending issue between the three of us.

Now, I gave up. I have it your way. In time to come, I might regret. I promise I won't blame you. Till then, the feelings might be different. But promise me too, don't blame me for being selfish when the time comes. I would want it my way by then, which I thought it will be better for us.

On a lighter note, High School Musical 3 is coming to town!!! Any ontakers who seek similar genres in movies? Heh.

BlooD!!! Agrhhh.

Feeling: Pang sai kor bia
Read: Human physiology notes on blood

The damn bloody notes on blood is damn bloody difficult to digest. Bloody hell. Nuff said, I should have attend the lecture this morning. =) Opps.

Today I spilled a whole gel tray of TBE buffer containing Ethidium Bromide onto my feet. Fuck, and the worst could have been, I was wearing scandals!!! I think I'm cursed to have cancer in fifty years down the road with those carcinogenic Ethidium Bromide leftovers pierced through my skin, sept through the skin cells and cell proliferation occurred.

Haha, I exaggerated a little. But the feeling really sucks, and make sure I will wear covered shoes for the remaining lab sessions!!! =)

My momentum to study is not back yet. =(
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(Or maybe it was never there, haha)

射雕英雄传

I used like three days to complete 50 episodes of the new 射雕英雄传.
The duration for each episode is almost an hour each.
So if i slept for eight hours on average for the three days,
The remaining 16 hours were glued on the screen!!! Haha.

I don't know about the classic edition in 1983 since I wasn't even born then. But this edition is much better then that of 1994 by Athena Chu and Julian Cheung Chi Lam, and definitely better then the boring edition in 2003 by Faye Wong's husband and Zhou Xun. This edition is a drama with the combination of love and wuxia components, and it became so "偶像剧" style! Haha. And I love the 蓉儿 in this edition since 林依晨 was the one acting in it, just that she didn't really portrayed the "evil" part of 蓉儿 that well. 东邪黄药师, as well as the 北丐洪七公 portrayed their characters very well though, with the former having this charisma, and the latter being so righteous and upright that was described in 金庸's actual novel. But the scriptwriter have changed the novel so much that there isn't any antagonists in the show. Even 杨康, 欧阳克 were all good people who 重情重义, and this the part I really can't stand. But still I would recommend this to those 金庸 fans. =)

靖 康 耻 犹 未 雪
臣 子 恨 何 时 灭

Maybe u will find love

Feeling: Apathetic
Song: Let's start from here by Joanna Wang



I stared at the computer screen for twenty minutes and I don't know what to write. I'm too lost with words. And life too.

If we could just put down the past, give up everything, and just walk away, we might be happier. Just today, I wished I could have packed my bag, booked an air ticket, and flew to somewhere else alone. Maybe on the streets somewhere faraway, I might be able to get you out of my mind, my thoughts, and my soul. Or perhaps, maybe not.

And if you thought u have lost your love. Think about it, there must be love somewhere. Down in the river below or hidden in the stars above. Without it, then what's life is all about. Look inside your heart, and look inside mine. When you found love, book an air ticket, and I will find you there.

In my heart.

First week of school

Today marks the 1st day of the second week of school. Lectures has begun, yet I'm still in my semi-horrendous-holiday mode. Chosen to concentrate in Biomedical Sciences after much thoughts even though I seriously hate biochemistry to the core. And luckily Pharmacology and Human Physiology (Cardiopulmonary system) weren't that "biochemistry" afterall.

The first pharmacology tutorial was boo hoo hoo thou. When I thought I was rather prepared by reading the tutorial questions before it commenced, people flowed in with answers that goes like "wow Wow WOw WOW!" I guess I need to be more proactive the next time round cause the lecturer called names for answers. -_-"

Forensic Science was fun, and I was impressed by the lecturer, Stella Tan. She got like 3 degrees from NUS that includes of a honor degree in Life Sciences and Master degree in Genetic Engineering from Faculty of Science, and another law degree from the Faculty of Law. Standing @ more then 175cm tall, she had represented Singapore in some universe pageant and model contests. Definitely a woman with beauty and brains.

Wake me up when the semester ends. Bah.

Pictures from Ocean Park. I really enjoyed being there (minus the Cs).

At the entrance.

Hot air balloon ride.

Buddies.

Brothers.

school. yucks. boo.

Hong Kong Trip

Feeling: Sleepless
Song: I'm Yours by Jason Mraz

Every time I stepped into the airport,
Be it standing at the gate biding farewell to friends;
Or standing at the viewing tower looking at the planes,
I wish I was the one checking in the luggage,
Passing through the immigration counter,
And get the hell out of this place for a year or two.

A form of escapism?

Nope, perhaps not.
I guess is the urge to venture out,
Finding "life" to be inserted into my monotonous life.

Just some stupid random thoughts.

Just like Singapore, Hong Kong was seriously too fast paced for me to comfortably fit in. I would have two thumbs up for the shopping and transportation, other than that, I would have to say no-no if you are finding some places for a relaxation. Hong Kong is way too commercialized. Nonetheless, I did have fun with 买东西，吃东西， 买东西， 吃东西。

Here's it:

Day 1: Dinner at Sweet Dynasty followed by desserts at Happy Together Delicatssen, and Mango Desserts at Xu Liu Shan. Yum Yum, a good way to kickstart holiday in Hong Kong, with her famous food paradise.

Day 2: Dim Sum breakfast at the more than 100 years old history Luk Yu Tea house, followed by fighting with the infamous umbrellas people from the C-Country at Ocean Park (which Li Guo Liang has yet to sent me the pics). We got burnt in the sun and became roasted pigs, before shopping at Causeway Bay. Reece-ED at Lan Kwai Fong for the clubbing next day before calling it a day. Oh yeah, we managed to squeeze in 2 hours at Central's H&M before dinner at 10pm and spotted some paparazzi and celebrities!!!

Day 3(1): One of my favorite day. Visited the famous Lantau Island's Big Buddha, followed by the fishing village at TaiO. We spent almost 2 hours trying to figure out how to (not kanna cheat) and purchase some good dried 干贝 for the mothers. Imagine three big guys getting all messy with how to choose the right ones, which in the end, we still bought the wrong ones. -_-"

Day 3(2): Club Beijing was chosen for the night to club, but in the end we didn't manage to get in due to a police triad which was as cool as what one could see in those Hong Kong drama. "Club-hopped" to Club Sugar due to no choice, and had the whole night dancing till like 3am! And I'm kinda sure I would club more on Friday nights if sure clubs are found in Singapore! They are hell happening! Some disclosed photos before the clubbing session.

Day 4(1): Visited the famous Lam Tsuen Wishing Trees whereby we basically opened our wallets and let the aunties there chopped chopped and chopped helped us with the praying! They no longer have those amulets to throw up the trees. Instead, they have a "noticeboard" to hang amulets which is "very commercialized". Rather disappointed. Shopping at Sha Tin followed by The Peak. The view was rather astonishing, and the supper at Macau Restaurant was just as great.

Day 4(1): Random pictures of me playing a fool in the Madame Tussauds at The Peak.

Day 5/6: Macau was indeed a city of casinos. They can gambled from poker cards to horses, to even dogs. The dog racing course we went for the first night is rather cool, and I lost a total of $140 Singapore dollars in the casinos. Damn! The old Portuguese ruins, the rundown houses of the locals, and the newly built classy casinos contrast one another, and formed a really nice and unique place on its own. But the ghost encounter that fateful night was something really unbearable. Speaking of it, my hairs would still stand. Agrhhhh. Ask me for details if you wanna know. Kinda lazy to type it all out. Hahaha.

Day 7/8: The last two days were basically spent on shopping in Mong Kok, Kowloon and Temple street, etc, and had a superb dinner at the famous Steakhouse along Lai Chi Kok Road. Visited the Avenue of Stars on the Tsim Sha Tsui waterfront promenade, and have a good view of the famous Hong Kong skyline. But I still prefer the view on The Peak though.

That's basically sum up my Hong Kong trip. And now, is back to the boring school term. Yucks.

Sem 5. Two more sems to go!

有“感”而发

Feeling: 说不出来的伤感
Song: 爱与希望by林俊杰

欢笑过后的宁静，欢乐过后的寂寞，总有一种“说不出来的伤感”。 不喜欢二十来岁的自己，少了以前青春岁月中的那一股叛逆，却多了一份莫名其妙的悲伤。

忧郁，好像是用来形容不快乐的人的。。。不知在何年何日，自己也变成了一个不快乐的人。

有过的梦，似乎跟流失的时间一样，飘的好远好远。在梦与现实之中，我终于选择了现实。

梦，醒了。

我真的从梦中苏醒了。

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给“最后溺爱中的女主角”：

无论如何，我都会在背后支持你的。当你感到寂寞难过的时候，我会在一旁陪你说话。当你需要哭诉的时候，总有我的肩膀给你靠。要加油哦！

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伟贤：*等待着希望*

HONG KONG RAWKS!

I'm back from the land of shopping since last Friday with four blisters on my feet, a burnt nose and a shagged body which took me more then 20 hours of sleep to recover. Hong Kong wasn't too bad, but apparently I would have prefer Taiwan. The 7kg worth of clothings for the family, the HAWT weather, the fighting on the peak tram with the C-country people, a ghost story we encountered in Macau, probably will sum up my entire HK trip.

Admit defeat with four blisters on my feet.

A close view of the pathetic feet.

Lazy on the details, but I'm great we really came back to Singapore in one piece. Phew. Nonetheless, I still have my share of fun. Pictures later.

Life

Feeling: Blank
Current Read: The Ancestor's Tale by Richard Darwins

I came to a point in life that I don't dare to dream anymore.
No hopes, no dreams, thus no disappointments. =)
Someone told me to be contended with what I have;
Cause I already have a very smooth life journey.
All I was trying to do now is trying to make my life difficult.
I gave him a smile, and kept quiet.

I wish I was as simple as what he thought.

On a happier note, Hong Kong in four days time!!!
Can't wait for the little getaway with the buddies.
And seriously, our itinerary looks more like an army excursion;
Firstly, all boys.
And then it comprises of waking up fucking early in the mornings;
And sleep very late at nights (thanks to clubbing, casino-ing, pubbing).
But I'm sure we going to have hell loads of fun.

School starting in three weeks time.
I'm going to give my last best shot.
I really dunno what I want in the future.

I just wish I would have a solution by then.

Life.

Lazy Update

Feeling: Peaceful
Song: Moon River by Henry Mancini



Like the peacfulness of this song with a note of sadness. A lazy sunday at home with gloomy weather makes me a real slacker (or peacemaker!). Basically I did nothing today, but just listening to some nice songs. I see some blues for the monday ahead though. Damn.

Irene's belated birthday yesterday was at this korean restaurant - Maru at the the former Madam Wong pub. Haha, while walking on the street of Mohammed Sultan, Hua and I can actually visualized the pathment by the road where we used to sit and play scissors-paper-stone after getting drunk high @ 18. Yes! we used to be this young. Haha.

Friends for 7 years.

Another shot of acting cute. Haha. Rene and I are not doing the job.

S-I-K

Me and the birdie girl.

It's amazing how friends met at some points of life due to simliar aims at that moment. But then due to different objectives in life thereafter, we actually grew up and became very different individuals. Gone were the days when we had the one for all, all for one motto. Gone were the days we had sleepovers and little conflicts during group projects. Gone were also the days we cursed and swore for the same test and exam. But the bond we once shared isn't gone, in fact it became stronger and matured. That's life I suppose.

Father's day was a simple buffet dinner at Swissotel Merchant Court last sunday. The durian paste was as usual orgasmic, and the sashimi were great. But the greatest deal was that fathers did not need to pay that day, and can eat for free. Haha.

An emo0oing daddy.

Coincidentally, the tay's sibings wore stripes that day.

I love the people in my life.

Work Eat Sleep

Feeling: Moodless
Current Read: The Ancestor's Tale by Richard Darwins
Song: Always Be my Baby by David Cook

I have been writing more and more on the private diary on livejournal, instead of blogging there. I guess some stuffs are not very appropriate to voice out here, especially those on decision makings (and gossips, haha). Nope, I'm not having any serious problems, just that I have a very montonous life these days to narrate to people. I wake up 6am every morning, and sleep at 11pm every night.

Job at this pharmaceutical firm construction site in Tuas was fine. But my daily job scope of photocopying and scanning can be fucking boring. Occasionally, the engineers would bring me into the almost completed plant to take a look. They got this general assumption that life sciences is about all about manufacturing things from these plants. They built and we used. Haha. The boss suggested to me to work in the company's new plant after graduating, hopefully he's not trying to crack a conversation and really call his big boss to employ me one year down the road.

The worst from the company could have been the temporary canteen; there's like only one halal and one non halal stall. Last thursday I found a worm in the rice I bought from the non halal stall, and ate half of it (it's quite crunchy by the way). I want to try the halal food, but it was infested with the blue collar workers during the lunch time. I don't mean to sound mean since they are doing their jobs, and without them, the plant wouldn't be built up. But if u imagine u need to inhale large amount of gas with a blend of sweat odour and "coconut oil from little india" before eating ur lunch, u properly will lost your appetite like I do. Anyway, I boycott the canteen entirely, and depend on homecook food to fill the stomach everyday. My mum is so lovely to cook me food to bring there every morning. =)

Met up with the guys on Friday after work. And we, being greenhorns in red wine, went into a wine bar in Holland V and ordered a bottle of red wine to chill out after claypot rice dinner @ Clementi. ahha, we didn't ordered the cheapo type one hor. Haha, anyway it was a "sweet first time", cause the red wine doesn't taste as bad as those I drank during clubbing. We had a good sharing session, and I really appreciated their presences whenever I have problems and vice versa. Friends of 11 years (13 for GL), I guess they understand me the most. =)

End of my unexciting and boring entry.

I'm (not) gay

Feeling: Sick =(
Current Film: 《蜂蜜幸运草》
Song: Always Be my Baby by David Cook

I never understand why hua kept idolizing David Cook as I was in the midst of preparing the exam when American Idol Season 7 was on tv. Then I stumbled onto his version of Always be my baby, and love his sad, hoarse voice version compared to that of Mariah Carey. He's good.

Congrats kok guan de bro for ur new job in Lonza. I gonna miss you when u are in New Hampshire for the next 18months, but I'm jealous too. *feel my jealousy in the air* Haha.

I almost puked out the coffee I was drinking this morning when my mum actually told me to go after Jun's sister who is 7 years old younger than me. That was perhaps her last straw of action after trying in vain to test out all my close gal friends who I got no feelings on. I reckon she would have put me up on the coming great singapore sales this coming june if she could, and I presume that this sudden pop-out issue must have been the wonder of the gossip mouths of those long distance relatives from my mum's side who went genting with us.

Seriously, I would love to get into a relationship one day if I managed to find the right person. But being single doesn't put me off as a gay right?!?!!? Haha. Well, if you put me up on the controversial Kinsey scale that has a 7 points – ranging from 0 (exclusively heterosexual), 3.5 (exclusively bisexual) and 7 (exclusively homosexual), I would have put myself off with a point 2 - 3 due to the reasons stated by mum that I almost laughed my ass off listening to them.

1. I love pink and purple besides green. (Does that make girls who like blue lesbians?)
2. I styled my hair on a daily basis. (I guess she has forgot how I look during the exam period.)
3. I used facial products, unlike my brother who can just sleep without washing up after a long day @ work. (Mum, that's about personal hygience.)
4. I love to swim. (jaw dropped when she actually told me that.)
5. I've did an eyebrow threading before that failed miserably.
6. I have diamond studs on my latest slippers, a pressie from the poly peeps and I'm loving it.
7. I love shopping.
8. I watch idol drama. (Who say i idolized Wu Zun?!?! I like my Ariel Lin. haha)

I told her (rather sarcastically) that too bad that I still prefer having a seafood meal over a chicken set, and I would love to have two big complimentary coconuts that come along with the dinner over two small fishballs.

She burst out laughing, and say i'm as dirty minded as my dad. -_-"

That's my mum but I love her still.

IM BACK!!!

Feeling: Rejuvenated with 22 hours of sleep
Current Film: 《蜂蜜幸运草》
Song: Summer Nights by John Travolta

I'm so into musical movies these days that I actually spent the whole day and night rewatching GREASE, HAIRSPRAY, WESTSIDE STORY, HIGH SCHOOL MUSICAL I and II before embarking the trip to genting. I am really amazed by the changes in John Travolta from the charming dude as Danny Zuko in GREASE to that of Tracy's plus-sized, reclusive laundress mother, Edna in HAIRSPRAY. Haha. Seriously, I think Zac Efron can't beat him in anything, except maybe his pair of blueish eyes that might have already killed thousands of girls his age.

And Genting was great though the journey back was really a torture. I swear I will bring along my mp3 player next time. Anyway, I did bring along the camera but only took two photos from it - one of dad, another of mum when we first checked in, and the gadget went into Judy's bag for the rest of the three days stay. LoL. And the classic was that I got my IC checked not once but THRICE for entering the casino. Yeah, I got that less-than-21-years-old-look (and kindda proud of it)! Hahaha.

Oh yeah, sister just had an ultrasound scan today, and her baby is a boY! Actually they were expecting a girl from the previous scan, but the kuku bird appeared out of all sudden, haha. Both of them are kindda disappointed since they prefer a girl, esp my brother-in-law who always want to be a daddy's girl's daddy. I would have prefer a boy thinking that boys are more fun to play with, and the fact that I'm sharing the room with the baby boy until the day I move out of the house (or brother moves out of the house). It is sort of confirmed that my mum will be looking after the baby during the weekdays after sister's delivery in october. Sister isn't willing to give up her job and so mum got to help her. As for me, I just can't get over the fact and start laughing when I know that mum is going to pass her throne of the MJ queen to others. She says she will have more trips to the genting during the weekends to satisfy her cravings. Haha. At least now I know I won't get pissed for waking up in the middle of my sleep by the sound of MJs and the laughters of the aunties. And there will be more chances for me to go genting with the mum and dad.

Looking forward to October and more genting trips. =)

Im a changed man

Feeling: A summer that feels like winter
Current Read: "Like the Flowing River" by Paulo Coelho
Song: 1973 by James Blunt

"I AM A CHANGED MAN!"

Well that's probably the famous verse I've been procastinating and chanting in school everyday ever since two semesters ago. And in real fact, I didn't changed at all; as in I didn't study as hard as I wanted to, I didn't visit the library at all until the exam period, I probably didn't know what's going on for bioinformatics till the day I entered the examination hall (since I skipped 50% of the lectures and didn't bother to watch the webcasts). Nothing to be proud of, I know. Next sem will be better. Haha.

But I'm a changed man today in another context. I managed to sleep at 11 plus pm yesterday and wake up at 8 am today to catch the morning sun. Seriously, I almost forget the feeling of mornings since I have been sleeping at 6am every "morning" and waking up at 5pm every evening. Today marks the day I'll be a chao-slacker-no-more, and be a good kid wannabe. Haha. I plan to a dip in the pool, spent the day in the bookshop, and meet up a friend for high tea. I miss good food. =)

And I guess I will get a 3 months temp job soon since the scholarships' results are out, and I only managed to get two out of the three scholarships I applied for. I exceed the overall budget by 1K. I guess i can never get out of this "stay in Singapore for good" curse. But one thing I gonna mention is that Canada is a damn good place to further studies. I actually checked out their universities' tuitions fees and found out that they are way cheaper compared to UK, australia and the states, and there are more scholarships to apply for. Perhaps I could do my Master there if I manage to break the "stay in Singapore for good curse" and if they accept me. Close friends who know me well enough would have know how many umpteen times I try to get out of this little island, be it choosing the university for undergraduate studies to applying the semester and summer exchanges in NUS. There's always something holding me back at the end of the day. Just like choosing NUS back then was a decision from the folks and not by me. If I could care less for their feelings and be more determined, I might be in australia or New Zealand now considering those universities that had accepted me. I'm partially at fault too, since human beings love to live in comfort zone. Sigh. Really hope to venture the see the wider horizons one day.

Yeah one day, I will.

Is De Holiday!!!

Feeling: Moodless
Current Read: Finishing up "Like the Flowing River" by Paulo Coelho I bought one year ago.
Song: Hi Hi Bye Bye by Cyndi wang

Chanced upon this song on the radio after sending the best friend home after supper. Fast song has never been the genre of music I like, but the melody of this song is somehow nice. Exams over, and I fall sick immediately. Damn it! It would be better off if it was during the exam, then I could have skipped the exam entirely. The doctor said it was some bacterial infection, and told me to revisit him if I'm not cured after the antibiotics course. Boo hoo hoo.

Everything seems to be hanging in the air now, and all I got to do is to wait. I was supposed to look for a job, but the response I got through the interviews were quite negative when I told them I could only work for a month since I might be going for the summer exchange at Canada, Alberta this coming july. On the other hand, I am currently waiting for the scholarshipsSsSs' results anxiously and impatiently. If I couldn't get the scholarship, I would have to say "hi hi bye bye" to Canada; and if I haven't secure a job by then, my entire 3months holiday will be a waste. Sigh, hate such feelings.

Photos from Alvin's birthday in March directly after Cell biology Test.

Me and my best lab partner!

The cutest couple.

The smartest couple.

Moi favourite couple.

The birthday boy.

And then it was The Taurus girls' belated birthday celebration after de exams. The dinner was at the Japanese Marche at Raffles Shopping Centre, followed by games at MINDS which was hell heaps of fun.

Present Exchange Ceremony.

Christine's very practical birthday present.

Peiyan's with her Anna Sui in purple.

Zhen xiao mei and I.

The aftermath of playing The Bones.

The rose among the thorns.

The People with the Bones.

Girls. Girls.

Girls. Girls. Girls.

Zhen, py and I.

The Bones battle!

And who say size doesn't matters? Haha.

Mother's Day was at Grandma's house. As usual, it was a short but nice gathering with the paternal relatives. Bought that little boy to Bukit Panjang Plaza with the cousins and sis after the celebration . And he was so reluctant to leave his "gor gor" on our way home. Haha.

Grandma, Grandpa and the little boy.

Waiting for the cake impatiently.

Cutting de cake.

My youngest cousin and Barney.

*praying for my scholarshipsss*