My tooth

I broke my tooth!

I couldn't open a bottle cap using my hands, so I decided to use my teeth to try. The cap came out eventually, but I scarified a tooth for it!!! Fuck that Allswell water chestnut drink!!!

And I guess I must be the most retarded person on earth to have a broken tooth in such a way.

Mamma mia!

Feeling: Trying to get strong
Read: Microbiology Lecture Note 1

Mamma mia the movie was surprisingly good. Ting and I went out of the movie humming "Dancing Queen". It was so ABBA!!! Meryl steep's voice was gorgeous, especially on "The Winner takes it all", not to mention that there was Pierce Brosnan's looks for Hua to drool for (since he probably can't sing at all, even though he seems to have tried real hard). Haha. Dominic Cooper's version of "Lay your love all over me" with Amanda Seyfried was my favourite scene. It was such a classic. Other than that, "money money money" tempo was nice. I like. =)

Waiting for High School Musical 3!

Shawn Tay is dead.

Feeling: Kind of calm?
Read/Write: Microbiology Practical 2 lab Report
Music: Hey Jude by The Beatles

I so love Beatles especially in sleepless nights like tonight.
Yeah, Retrophilic freak I am.

Some friends in school commented how tired I looked these days. With so many things added on together, I'm really traumatized by what has happened. There is a lowest point in everyone's life, and I just happened so to be in such situation right now. I thank those who did came to me and show care and concern. But I'm sorry, I just don't know how to break such things to you people. But really, it's appreciated. *smile*

On a random note, I feel like changing the spelling of my English name to Sean, Shayn or Shane. No specific meanings I guess, just maybe feel like living away from the past, and getting rid of those memories that hurts, especially from the past one month.

Relationships - of all kinds - are like sand held in your hand. Held loosely, with an open hand, the sand remains where it is. The minute you close your hand and squeeze tightly to hold on, the sand trickles through your fingers. You may hold onto some of it, but most will be spilled. A relationship is like that. Held loosely, with respect and freedom for the other person, it is likely to remain intact. But hold too tightly, too possessively, and the relationship slips away and is lost.

Sean Tay

I want it my way

Feeling: Gave up
Song: My Way by Elvis Presley

My way. Originated from Frank Sinatra, but i love this manly version by Elvis Presley. Strong powerful lyrics that always make me stronger.

I've loved, I've laughed and cried.
I've had my fill; my share of losing.
And now, as tears subside,
I find it all so amusing.

Just yesterday I had a quarrel. A fucking bad quarrel. If only I insisted on doing it my way, things might have been very different. Regrets, I have a few, but this would have killed me entirely. I kept pondering through the whole night, should I, or should I not. It's no longer about decision making anymore. It's no longer about hoping anymore. It's about the best for us all. I see it through. No one is at fault, just that I hate this never ending issue between the three of us.

Now, I gave up. I have it your way. In time to come, I might regret. I promise I won't blame you. Till then, the feelings might be different. But promise me too, don't blame me for being selfish when the time comes. I would want it my way by then, which I thought it will be better for us.

On a lighter note, High School Musical 3 is coming to town!!! Any ontakers who seek similar genres in movies? Heh.

BlooD!!! Agrhhh.

Feeling: Pang sai kor bia
Read: Human physiology notes on blood

The damn bloody notes on blood is damn bloody difficult to digest. Bloody hell. Nuff said, I should have attend the lecture this morning. =) Opps.

Today I spilled a whole gel tray of TBE buffer containing Ethidium Bromide onto my feet. Fuck, and the worst could have been, I was wearing scandals!!! I think I'm cursed to have cancer in fifty years down the road with those carcinogenic Ethidium Bromide leftovers pierced through my skin, sept through the skin cells and cell proliferation occurred.

Haha, I exaggerated a little. But the feeling really sucks, and make sure I will wear covered shoes for the remaining lab sessions!!! =)

My momentum to study is not back yet. =(
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(Or maybe it was never there, haha)