It's not an easy task to act cheerful and happy on the outside, when deep inside, the tears are actually flowing uncontrollably.
It's hard being stressed out and desperately need a shoulder to cry on, but yet got to appear strong and jovial as that's what people brand you as.
I had a great night run today. A long slow run from my-house-to-clementi-and-back-to-my-house to readjust my thoughts of current situation. I felt really helpless with schoolwork these days, and never have enough time for the tutorials. Boo. I read finished chapters and chapters of lecture notes (today), only to find out I know nothing while trying to attempt those tutorial questions. Molecular Biology wasn't as fun as I used to think it is, Biochemistry is still as detestable as ever. Passionate in life sciences doesn't mean I could excel in it, and I know I can't. It is just not in me. Somehow, I missed the old (poly) days, my freedom, and my happy-go-lucky nature. Saw a shooting star when running back just now, and I made a wish. And I hope it will be a wish come true.
Physiology CA coming up next...
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