Friendships

Met up with the boys on Friday.

It have been almost a year ever since we met up, and it was a night of an usual catch up, talking about things I won't just share with many, things about the closet affairs. It was a warmth evening that I enjoyed, breaking myself from the books and notes. Friends, I have many, some true friends among whom I value highly. I thank them for always being there for me, whenever I need; wherever I need; being my true friends.

Bad mouthing, betrayal, hatred, I have seen too many cases of best friends breaking up. I'm lucky that it hasn't really happen to me yet, or has happened but just that I was kept in the dark. I used to prioritize friendship alot, above family, career or even love. And now, perhaps I have grown up, I'm thinking otherwise.

No, don't judge me yet, cause if one really sit down and think, I bet he/she will think likewise. I'm just being realistic. Will you ever give up your love because your best friend don't like him/her??? Okay, I'm being on the extreme, but I'm just trying to bring the point over. I have plenty of friends whom I held so dearly at that certain stages of life. But as our lives drifted apart, many have now term as "acquaintances". It's definitely a sad thing, I might be at fault for not putting efforts into those friendships, or maybe is them, or maybe is both parties. Speaking about true friends, I guess I can count within the fingers of my both hands. How ironical isn't it?

True friends are those you don't need to meet everyday, see everyday, talk everyday. It's an affair about soul bonding. An occasional message, an out-of-the-blue phonecall, and you will feel the friendship everyday. I think that's more then enough.

12 years of friendship is long I know... But still I have not enough of it yet. Haha.

True friends is all that matters. =)

EMO KING

Current Mood: Mood-less
Current Song: Carrie Underwood's ver of I'll stand by you
Current Read: Immunobiology by Janeway

Quote: "Shawn is an emo king".
-By Alvin Tay-

Hahaha, how true. I did the colorgenics test once again. Haha, and this time round, very emo indeed (and yet realistic at the same time). Totally opposite result from the one I did couple of years back.

At this particular time, you are feeling that you are or were unjustly and undeservedly treated and/or betrayed in your hopes and dreams. You feel that everything is against you. But look on the bright side for you are, whether you believe it or not, a survivor.

Always anxious to accept the role of the leader, as indeed you often work well with people - but try to stay out of the limelight. You'd like a life of ease with no one to rock the boat and someone who understands you is so important in your life.

At times one is burdened with more than one's fair share of problems and this would appear to be your situation at present. But you are adamant - you know what you wish to achieve - and by giving a little and taking a little you may well find that the realization of your dreams could become a reality.

For whatever the reason, you find it extremely difficult to sustain relationships - that is to sustain them in the manner that you would wish. You are a very gentle sort of person, full of feeling, sensitivity and susceptible to love and affection, looking and longing for a partner with whom you can enjoy 'All things bright and beautiful' - someone with whom you can seek out the more esoteric things of life. But up to now this person has only existed in your imagination. You are very choosy, appreciative, refined and extremely artistic in temperament and it is your hope to seek others who will allow you to form and express your own taste and judgement and who at the same time may assist you in your intellectual or artistic growth.

In the past your trusting attitude has often been misunderstood and so you have needed to protect yourself against your tendency to be abused and taken advantage of. As a consequence you possibly adopt an aloof and critical attitude and you are only willing to let your guard down once sincerity and trustworthiness can be assured.

If only dreams come true...

Life is vulnerable

Current Mood: Sad
Current Song: Amazing Grace (Music)
Current Read: Biotechnology Practical 1

After that day I saw LT Bernard during the career fair, my mind has been wandering to that little room in 4SIR Lim Chu Kang Camp 2, whereby a few of us called it home for a year or two. At the corner of that room sit a lovely, bubbly, and very plump woman who wore perfume and carried a fake LV bag. The room was always filled with her laughter, and she’s probably one of the reasons I don’t hate army as much as some of my friends.

She’s one hell a good superior who understand army boys. Once, I was still writing a report 9pm in the night when she was about to knock off. She told me to stop my work, reminding me that I’m just a NSF and work can never be finished. Then she treated me supper before we left the camp together. Another occasion, I was having problem with the medical centre due to an implemented urine regime by the Commanding Officer. To cut the story short, I was told to take up the duties meant for the medics. She protected me by barking back to the officers, and tried to shield me for being bullied. In the end, although Bernard and I was still the one being arrowed, I’m still grateful how she tried to protect us.

A year in 4SIR with her and the rest has been a joyous affair. We worked like a family. She was the mother of a handful of soldiers who she called them as darlings. Adam, Mike, Bernard, “Shawn” just to name a few. We complained to her, and she complained to us. We worked for her, and she gossiped to us. Our team spirit was so high that once the Commanding Officer commented that we are too happy and told us to be more serious in work. -_-” And so we gave him black faced whenever he entered the room. Other than that, we are still that funky, happy bunch of people playing as hard as we worked.

As I was thinking about how going back to camp this coming June wasn’t a bad idea, cause I will be seeing this old lady once again, I received the most shocking text from Adam. The text reads, “Madam Rosnita died yesterday due to a heart failure.”

*Blank*

It was too sudden.

I was heartbroken.

Life is so vulnerable.

As I vividly remembered how she used to care and concern about her subordinates including me, and knew that I won’t be seeing her again this coming June, tears started to roll down from my face. She taught me many things from her thirty-something years of army experience. She taught me how to take things easy, and not to give oneself too much stress. She taught me how to be more street smart by closing one eye. In fact, she’s the one that let me feel that serving NS isn’t that bad after all. Coz, unlike many other regular officers, she was a democratic leader with no airs, and has a lovely motherly image.

Although Bernard and I will be going back together (I think) this coming June, the room we used to work together will no longer be the same without her laughter.

The energy of joy in the room has gone.

So has her.

Chief, rest in peace.

Alex's Wedding

Current Mood: Clueless bout life
Current Song: Lovebug by Jonas Brothers
Current Read: Microbiology Practical 1

Some friends and I had a long talk with Prof Sim today, a kind lady with alot of lifelong experiences to share. As she quoted, "Just try your best! Eventually if you didn't get till where you want, you will still be somewhere close to there." Yup, a quote that is so real and motivating, but yet so dreamy and ironical. I remembered I used to tell my folks this same old quote, but the only reply I got back from them was, "Don't think too far. Just be a normal person, seek a normal job, get a normal pay, and lead a normal life..." *laughs* I don't blame them at all, cause I guess they are seeing things from another perspective of life.

True enough, in a place like Singapore, there's already too much challenges for a normal Singaporean to face. Singaporean kids have been bought up understanding the fact that "A good qualification equals to securing a good job of high pay, that permits one to live in luxury, buy a house, get a car and go to the ideal destination for holiday." I believe that the younger generation will fit well into this little cosmopolitan city. As for me, I just feel that I don't fit in so perfectly.

3 months from now, I will be graduating. But yet, I still can't figure out the path ahead of me. I thought I want to be a marine biologist, but then again, Research = no money, money = no research. And so, I came back to the starting point again.

On a happier note, Alex's wedding was over last last Saturday. A union of two hearts. How sweet. The food was quite good as compared with other hotels, and the "wine appreciation" session thereafter was crazy. Haha. Pictures:

Sweet.

The vow of a lifetime.

The Brothers and the poly cliques.

Another photo while waiting for the ceremony to begin.

The Wedding Dinner at Roxy Hotel.

Us, including Sam's pretty girlfriend.

We took up 1/4 of the card meant for all guests to write our wishing.

The girls.

The boys.

Girls from Table 20.

The guys from Table 20.

And lastly, as the couple was too busily entertaining other people.
We cam-whored in front of 24 other tables!!!
It started from Hua and BL, and then two boys followed.
Then it went click click click, click click click...
Until Jeffery came to us and said,
"Whao lau, you four add up together already100 years old still do this!!!"
-_-" then we went back to the table for... *ahem* wine appreciation.




Had fun.

The Wedding Bell Rings

Current Mood: Joyous
Current Song: Canon in D
Current Read: The Lovely Bones by Alice Sebold

January 2009.
Two weddings.
A month of love, reunion and joy.

L-O-V-E stands for love.
Simple to spell,
Difficult to understand.
A lifetime to know it.

Cousin WeiGuang marrying in a week time;
The first male within our generation.
Never expect him to be the one;
Cause he's always the studious one among all.

Alex's next.
The last day of the month.
The last day of singlehood.
But yet, a love of everlasting.

A church wedding,
As the "Canon in D" plays,
A wedding of a lifetime.
Congratulations dudes.

Love.
A wildly misunderstood,
Although highly desirable malfunction of the heart,
Which weakens the brain,
Causes eyes to sparkle,
Cheeks to glow,
Blood pressure to rise,
And the lips to pucker.

Love.
Does not consist of gazing at each other,
But in looking together in the same direction.

Love.
Two souls, one heart;
that's the quote.

Forever;
That's the word.

Best wishes.