Feeling: Moodless Current Clip: <<摩登如来神掌>> starring Andy Lau Song: When I see you smile by Bad English
This old school song playing on imeem now coupled with the old film I just watched; actually get me into this emo shit. And do ask god why I can get into such an emotional state when the film I watched, was as a point of fact, an old hongkong comedy starring Andy Lau which Thomas and I were trying to figure out the title over dinner earlier on. (And dude, it’s called <<摩登如来神掌>>. Do watch it yeah, it’s damn hilarious.) Those nutty stuffs about 万佛潮州 and 天蟾脚 were really classics. And now, I understand why Hongkong movies was once so hot in the nineties, way before the Korean and Taiwan dramas came into place. Okay fine, I admit I was once in that era and declared myself as an old school boy. =)
Sometimes, I wonder what is actually the point of living, or rather what does life ought to be. Nope, please don’t get me wrong; I wasn’t in any suicidal mode, it was just probably a (not so) random thought which I shan't elaborate further to make people bored. And I probably will die one day if the cells in my body aren’t functioning anymore; cell proliferation occurs due to uncontrolled cell cycle, and I am diagnosed with cancer... CHOY! Pardon me yeah, that’s probably the aftermath of studying too much cell biology in a week. Haha, anyway the paper is over today and I’m so going to be screwed for the semester. Left that bioinformatics to be screwed. "Can't wait".
Ms Seah and Mr Lim, I freakingly miss you two like siao. Let's go for some cuppas after moi exam yeah?!?! =) And I so wanna watch this old school play again after exam.
Feeling: Overwhelmed with those cell cycle proteins that begin their synthesis after that fucker gatekeeper - retinoplasma protein knocked down! Current Read: Chang's notes left untouched and exam in 14 hours time! Song: 阳光宅男 by Jay Chou
I hate the feeling of coming out of the examination hall, knowing I have flunked a paper (yet again). The whole semester's effort came to a waste, and the worst could have been that it has been my favourite module all these while. Is not a difficult paper to begin with, just that I only have myself to blame lah. Fuck. -_-" I should have start my revision earlier.
To be frank, the only thing I learnt in university is to memorize. You can memorize, you can score. And if you can't, you will die just like me. I think that applies to all education levels in singapore's context yeah.
Cell biology and bioinformatics coming up next. I reckon the former won't be easy to dealt with. It's a test of memory again! The common test results weren't too bad for both, just that the verdict is not out until the exams. Eight more days to go!!! AgrhhhhH!
5th of May, seems so near yet so far... But i can see some light ahead, =) Genting with the cousin (pending) Thailand with the sister (confirmed!). HongKong with the butt and Gl the bro (pending).
And maybe that Canada's student exchange. (that is if I manage to get de scholarship) =)
Feeling: Came back from the dead Current Read: Perfume and Cosmetics notes Song: Journey by Corrinne May
I went through seven mountains this week.
My mind was once filled with emptiness and angst; and I fucked it. I stumbled into a dead hole of mirage and delusion; an unfamiliar place of no misery and sorrow. There's no reality in there. And before I gained back conscious, everything's too late. I knew I got to take the walk, the walk back to misery and pain. The walk back to reality. It was real hard. No one want reality. No one want the truth.
But still, I took the walk.
And today, I looked through the reflection from the mirror. I saw a pale man with very dark circles and had a great laugh. What a joke I created on myself.
I tried that colourgenics test. Is kindda accurate, at least in my context. =)
You are constantly hoping that your good fellowship and attitude and your 'love for your fellow man (or women)' will give you peace of mind. You need people - people around you to care for you and to show you that they care. It is this hope that keeps you going, the hope that makes you the type of person that indeed you are. Your own need for approval seemingly makes you always ready to help others and in exchange you seek love, warmth and understanding. You will always listen to others and you are open to new ideas which hopefully will prove fruitful and interesting.
You are a leader in every sense of the word. You know where you are going and you know what you need to do in order to get there. You exercise an inherent initiative in overcoming obstacles and difficulties. You either hold, or wish to achieve, a position of authority by means of which full control can be exerted over events.
You are feeling under considerable pressure and you are being forced to make concessions. You are not particularly happy with this state of affairs but you feel that you have no alternative. If you were to force issues you would be left out or completely ignored by one and all.
Whatever has caused the situation, you just don't seem to be able to sustain or maintain relationships as you would wish to. What you really seek is to be able to develop a relationship with someone with whom you can truly share: Love, Serenity, Peace and Quiet. But you are a very demanding person and it is your nature that leads to disquiet and discord: you are like the tide, flotsam and jetsam... One minute you experience 'highs' and a few moments later 'lows'. This obviously will introduce discord into any relationship and with this demanding attitude - the ideal state you desire is unable to develop. Despite the urge to gratify your natural desires, you impose a considerable self-restraint on your instincts in the belief that this demonstrates your superiority and raises you above the common herd. You are extremely critical of everything that is presently going on around you and you find it difficult to listen to or to take advice from anyone. You enjoy the original, the ingenious and the subtle.
You feel that you need to move on. You feel that you are not appreciated or valued for what you are and that the time is 'now'. Failure to do so will not afford you the conditions to prove your worth.
Feeling: Chirpy :-) Current Read: Teo Tian Seng's Cell Bio notes Song: Life story
Watched The finalist at De Substation with Jerry and Nix today. Besides the bad hard seats that made my ass cracked, the film was actually nice. And that was a huge swarm of eye candies around for you to eye on (that's if you are gay). Haha. Anyway, the film was quite an eye opening.
Keluar Baris, Boo Junfeng's segment was first on the list. "Fall out" was actually the English translation for Keluar Baris. And the segment portrayed a 18 years old guy who returns home from his studies in Europe two days before he is enlisted into the army. This story is about his personal struggle between national duties and personal liberty. Perhaps I expected alot more from Boo, this film was rather disappointing. No emotions, no fanciful scenes. I guess “ultimate sianz-ness” is what the director was trying to convey.
Wet Seasons by Michael Tay coming up next was rather refreshing. Wet Seasons is a tribute to Michael’s father who passed away six years ago, and is told in a combination of live-action and stop-motion animation. Instead of going it through the hard way of lots of emotions, sorrow and dejection, this film linked the father and son together with the idea of how men are linked to their right hand (or left for some) - yeah, it's masturbation (if you are thinking real hard now). It symbolized how different were they in thoughts, and yet there is sure to be some similarities somewhere, somehow. The emphasis on "they never masturbate together" indicated how distant they were. If they could masturbate together before then old man died, things might be different. I guess here sounds abit exotic, coz no one in the hell would want to masturbate with their daddies (for me at least). Haha, but I guess the director was just trying to convey the message that if both the son and dad opened their heart to one another, perhaps things will be different. Isn’t this what all of us are going through with our folks? I like this segment. It keeps me smiling.
Para Asia (For Asia) by Fran Borgia caught some hot tears of mine. Is so simple and sad of how can one young man came to terms with the death of his beloved wife, as we followed him as he finds his ways to keep the memories alive. The whole film was in black and white as the man misses his wife, and colors only appeared when the man managed to make a film out of his wife using old photos. Like what the film said at the end, “do not live in the past, when the past is not ending yet.”
The rest includes:
Love Me, Love My Dogs by Lincoln Chia Zhicheng – The film is about this transsexual and her obsessions with dogs. It portrays how one can get possessed with something.
My Home, My Heaven by a talented student by a Ngee ann polytechnic student. Ahmad, a juvenile delinquent, is released from his time in a Boy’s Home. After his return home, Ahmad finds himself at crossroads again despite his efforts to redeem himself from the past.
Kallang Roar by Cheng Ding - The last hope for Singapore football is in the hands of the uncontrollable eccentric genius Singapore coach, Uncle Choo. The tumultuous relationship between Football Association Chairman, Mr Ganesan and Uncle Choo is further tested as they both fight passionately to restore the Kallang roar in 1977.
Silent Girls by Ric Aw. - Two 16-year-old girls get lost in the strange world of love, sex and the internet. Damn it, it really focus on how stupid some young girls are, and how bastard some guys are!!!
