Break from the books

I guess I deserved this fifteen minutes break (to blog).

Haha, i have been mugging like hell these three days (minus away the time I sleep, eat, and poo) to prepare for the coming tests. It's really crazy to have three tests falling within two consecutive days, which happened to be tomorrow and the day after. But then again, I think it's a great rehearsal for the finals when I will be having Immunology on the 28th morning, Applied Microbiology on the afternoon, and Infectious Disease on the next morning. Haha, damn screwed.

Luckily, I do have a very supportive family all these years, and really heart them for that. My dad was super funny yesterday. When I reached home, he commanded me to stop touching the books, and insisted that I have a drink with him. I know he wanted me to relax a little (lah), but unlike other fathers who want their children to excel, I guess he's the only father who will tell his son that "studying too much will kill!!!". Haha, so I did put the books aside after his super nice quote, to finish up a bottle of red wine with him.

And i heart friends. It's so heart warming to receive those encouraging smses from u-know-who-u-are when I'm in the midst of preparing for the tests in the cold and boring library. Those smses really brightened up my days. Let's meet up after my exams!!! =) Secondary school gathering, poly mates gathering, etc etc, I'm so looking forward. But then first of all, I need to get my "party genes" activated first. Haha.

Back to books.

GRADUATING LE!!!!!!!!!

Current Mood: Impatient
Current Song: 寂寞在唱歌 by Ah sang
Current Read: Lecture 13 of Physics in Life Sciences

A song delicated to those who love the songs of this great artiste.
Not her most well known song,
but my favorite for those sleepless night
阿桑, 一路好走。。。

Entering the last episode of school life, I have no much feelings or emotions to struggle about. In fact i feel as though it was a release......

Hatred, might be too strong a word to use.
But at least I know I really dislike this place.

To voice out: "This semester has been the greatest semester I had." I have wonderful lab sessions, I met up with wonderful lab group mates, I had my share of fun and the bonding was good. It's so unlike other semesters, whereby lab sessions was at the minimal, and lectures was almost everything just "to make us great researchers of the future'.

If only things were as great at the beginning.
My love for education, has in fact, been traumatized by the school system since year1.
Haha, nuff said about the system, only the geeks and genius love it.
Unfortunely, i don't fall to the above categories.

Four weeks, that's all I need.
And I will be free.
Yeah!!!

A Little Update

Current Mood: Lost
Current Song: Still in Love with You by Jonas Brothers
Current Read: Life Sciences in Physics Term Paper

I have unofficially finished school since the semester break five weeks ago. Occasionally, I do make guest appearances for the lab practicals, tests or report submissions. My attendance was so bad that some uni friends jokingly want to celebrate a "school reopen ceremony" for me when I saw them the other day.

Boo.

2 more reports to rush.
3 more tests to struggle.
4 more weeks till exam.
5 more exam papers for my school life.
And I will be officially done with my entire education life.

The road ahead seems so welcoming, yet so traumatizing and unclear. I longed to reach the other side of the road when I just started university, but now I'm thinking otherwise. Joining the BioBiz seminar talk the other day make things worst. I didn't know that the market is so bad now.

In fact I'm backing out, and wish to study for a year more or two. Even though I don't really like the marking system of my university in general (those competitions within friends to fight for the top 5% to get As), I still think it will be better then those politics I got to handle in a working environment.

Sigh. The route ahead is so gloomy.

That application in Germany.
I'm hoping the best out of it.

Friendships

Met up with the boys on Friday.

It have been almost a year ever since we met up, and it was a night of an usual catch up, talking about things I won't just share with many, things about the closet affairs. It was a warmth evening that I enjoyed, breaking myself from the books and notes. Friends, I have many, some true friends among whom I value highly. I thank them for always being there for me, whenever I need; wherever I need; being my true friends.

Bad mouthing, betrayal, hatred, I have seen too many cases of best friends breaking up. I'm lucky that it hasn't really happen to me yet, or has happened but just that I was kept in the dark. I used to prioritize friendship alot, above family, career or even love. And now, perhaps I have grown up, I'm thinking otherwise.

No, don't judge me yet, cause if one really sit down and think, I bet he/she will think likewise. I'm just being realistic. Will you ever give up your love because your best friend don't like him/her??? Okay, I'm being on the extreme, but I'm just trying to bring the point over. I have plenty of friends whom I held so dearly at that certain stages of life. But as our lives drifted apart, many have now term as "acquaintances". It's definitely a sad thing, I might be at fault for not putting efforts into those friendships, or maybe is them, or maybe is both parties. Speaking about true friends, I guess I can count within the fingers of my both hands. How ironical isn't it?

True friends are those you don't need to meet everyday, see everyday, talk everyday. It's an affair about soul bonding. An occasional message, an out-of-the-blue phonecall, and you will feel the friendship everyday. I think that's more then enough.

12 years of friendship is long I know... But still I have not enough of it yet. Haha.

True friends is all that matters. =)

EMO KING

Current Mood: Mood-less
Current Song: Carrie Underwood's ver of I'll stand by you
Current Read: Immunobiology by Janeway

Quote: "Shawn is an emo king".
-By Alvin Tay-

Hahaha, how true. I did the colorgenics test once again. Haha, and this time round, very emo indeed (and yet realistic at the same time). Totally opposite result from the one I did couple of years back.

At this particular time, you are feeling that you are or were unjustly and undeservedly treated and/or betrayed in your hopes and dreams. You feel that everything is against you. But look on the bright side for you are, whether you believe it or not, a survivor.

Always anxious to accept the role of the leader, as indeed you often work well with people - but try to stay out of the limelight. You'd like a life of ease with no one to rock the boat and someone who understands you is so important in your life.

At times one is burdened with more than one's fair share of problems and this would appear to be your situation at present. But you are adamant - you know what you wish to achieve - and by giving a little and taking a little you may well find that the realization of your dreams could become a reality.

For whatever the reason, you find it extremely difficult to sustain relationships - that is to sustain them in the manner that you would wish. You are a very gentle sort of person, full of feeling, sensitivity and susceptible to love and affection, looking and longing for a partner with whom you can enjoy 'All things bright and beautiful' - someone with whom you can seek out the more esoteric things of life. But up to now this person has only existed in your imagination. You are very choosy, appreciative, refined and extremely artistic in temperament and it is your hope to seek others who will allow you to form and express your own taste and judgement and who at the same time may assist you in your intellectual or artistic growth.

In the past your trusting attitude has often been misunderstood and so you have needed to protect yourself against your tendency to be abused and taken advantage of. As a consequence you possibly adopt an aloof and critical attitude and you are only willing to let your guard down once sincerity and trustworthiness can be assured.

If only dreams come true...